Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

**Leon’s POV**

I was mixed with emotion when I saw Lisa at the examination venue at the military installation. I could not utter a word and I just jumped to my table going to her table. I just looked at her. I wanted to embrace her and kiss her but I cannot do that for fear that she still hates me for what I have done to our relationship. I just placed both of my hands over her table and asked her to wait for me at the lobby after the examination. I was so lucky that she agreed with me. I wanted to jump with joy but also fearing that she already has a boyfriend. I just need to deal with one thing at a time. I just need to talk to her.

I cannot keep myself from touching her because I missed her a lot. If I can turn back the hands of time, I should have told her earlier what really transpired between me and that girl. But fate creates a different path for us. I just wish I could correct it this time.

Lucky enough for me that she doesn’t have a boyfriend. I know she has been more careful this time to be in a relationship because of the misfortune of our relationship. I know it devastated her more than I can imagine because she was the one who got hurt the most. Too bad I cannot face her father anymore because of the promise I made to him. But I need to be brave to face her father again to show him that I really love her daughter. No matter what he said to me I would accept it because I am at fault. I hope this time fate will be good to us, because I really love Lisa no matter what. I cannot stand and accept that she would be lost forever.

During the time that I was out of Lisa’s life. My sister transfers me to a different school because she cannot stand looking at me depressed and my parents are not supporting my studies anymore because of the situation that I get into. Good thing that my sister can support me enough to finish my course because she works for the airline company as ground manager. I need to overcome my depression to finish my studies to prove to my parents and Lisa’s parents that I am good enough for their daughter and to my parents who were wanting me to marry that girl.

When I was transferred to another university, I was already in my fourth year, and I knew Lisa would be in her third year, we have one year difference. I was devastated when I learned that her grades went down drastically and her scholarship was stripped of her. I know it was a great frustration on her because of what I cost her. I cannot turn back the hands of time but I can change to correct the future and make it better.

I am presently working as quality assurance of heavy equipment in one of the largest companies selling and repairing heavy equipment in the country. I love my job and the pay is good, enough to start a family. I wish it could be with Lisa, my only love.

After the day me and Lisa have settled our differences, I have constantly called her at her office and at the same time waited for her after office hours. I cannot directly send her home because Lisa was so afraid that her father would know that we were seeing each other again. Though I don’t want our situation, I wanted Lisa to have her peace of mind for now. I don’t want to be an added burden to her.

“Please don’t take me home for now. I am afraid that my father will know that I am seeing you again.” Lisa requested me.This text is property of Nô/velD/rama.Org.

“I know what you feel, though I don’t want us to be this way. I wanted to let them know that my intention to you is sincere just like before. If they could hear me out first, I would gladly let them know.” I told Lisa.

“I just wanted you to know that I am not rushing you up. But I wanted to know my place in your heart. Am I still there?” I shyly asked her.

“Now you are asking me where were you in my heart? Do you really think that I can easily replace you in my heart?” She answered, looking at her finger while twisting it.

“You mean, you still love me?” I smilingly asked her.

“I never thought for the last three years you became that slow Leon.” She said more like a statement than a question. “If you have a replacement in my heart, you shouldn’t be here, ok.”

I was so overwhelmed by what she said. I couldn’t control myself from crying and I embraced her. “Baby, thank you for forgiving me for all that I have done and waiting for me until now.” I wanted to kiss her but she stopped me. I am just holding all the urges that I wanted to do. But I need to wait. I know Lisa doesn’t want to be intimate in public, that is a no no to her. It is good enough that we can start all over again. Now my biggest problem is her parents. How to gain their trust again. I just hope I can find a way to talk to her parents and explain my side without being punched in the face.

While I am embracing her, I don’t want to let her go. As if she’ll run away and never return. I wanted the feeling to last while embracing her again in my arms. Hoping that it would last forever this time.