Yearning For The Badboy Mafia’s Love

CALISTA RAYMONDS

I have been in my room for hours now and I really need to get out of this room but I don’t wanna see Chase.

There’s no way I can avoid him even if I want to, but this time.. I’m determined to not let my guts now.

He have hurt me more than he’s supposed to, maybe I wasn’t even in love with it. I’m just in love with his looks and that’s makes a huge difference.

If he knew Charlotte is his girlfriend why then did he make me this other wise? Why then did he gift me a necklace, asked me to be his date , and still went ahead to kiss me thrice!

Oh God, this is driving me crazy. I reached for my phone and check the time, it’s night already… 9;23 Pm.NôvelDrama.Org (C) content.

That mean I have been in my room for many hours and I didn’t even know?. I open the drawer and bring out my medicine then with the water in the can, I drank them.

I don’t know if Charlotte stayed over and I don’t even care to know.

But the fact that she’ll be so mischievous as to slap herself and put the blame on me .. what hurts me the most is the fact that Chevy believe her without even hearing me out.

I sigh, I really need a drink! I need to get drunk if I want to stop thinking this much.

This past few days haven’t really been the best for me.. just when I thought all Charlotte said earlier was just a lie.. Chase proved her right today.

No matter how much I try to stop thinking about this, I just can’t and it hurts that I have to keep thinking and talking about it over and over again!

I stood up and walk to the door, I opened it slowly so I don’t make a noise. I’m just gonna go down stairs to the kitchen and take a glass of wine then return back here.

Chase is the last person I wish to see and do I have to look out first to make sure he’s not in sight.

I walked out of my room and successfully climb downstairs… I walk to the kitchen and bring out a glass then poured myself a wine and put it back on the fridge.

Holding the glass cup, I walk back to the sitting room and sat down on the high chair then sigh.

I won’t give Charlotte another chance to mess with me and make me look crazy.

The lights suddenly went off and I looked at the bulbs then around the sitting room.

Okay! This is odd, the lights have never went off before so why now? And the only thing my mind can drive to is the strange guard I meet earlier in the afternoon.

What if he’s trying to play a silly game? What if he’s a spy and was asked to kill me or Chase…! But if he’s paid to kill me, he would have did that the moment he realize I’m all alone.

Geez! Everything is driving crazy and I won’t stop think nonsense. I think I’ll be needing to see a therapist.

The lights went on again and I sigh… I need to return to my room so I don’t meet Chase… I stood up to leave but bumped into Chase.

Oh God! Here comes the monster of this house.

I looked up at him and he was looking at me too.. the fact there is that Chase is taller than me, Chase is 6’1 and I’m just 5’6.. so he’s taller than me and when he looks at me, I feel like he’s really looking down at me.

“I’m sorry..” I told him and try to walk past me but he hold my hand and pull me back making me stand in front of him once more.

“Are you mad at me?” He whispered.

He’s trying to play his silly games with me again! Is he done seeing his girlfriend now. I slapped his hand off me and rolled my eyes at him.

He raised his hand and showed me the necklace he’d give to me which I removed earlier.

“Why did you remove this?” He asked.

I took a step towards him, making sure there was no gap between the both of us and we can breath the same air.

“Because I don’t need it!” I told him plainly and he nodded.

“I feel like you’re lying … Don’t worry, I’m going to put it back around your neck” he said and try putting it but I moved back.

“Are you seriously going to pretend like we’re good right now? Seriously! I don’t need your damn necklace.. you can throw it to the dogs if you want to” I yelled at him but instead he just look at me and smirk..

“You’re still mad at me?” He asked.

“Chase… What do you take me for? That I’m a joke and one of your preys? Damn you… How much joy does it give you to play with people’s feeling! I don’t want you to be nice to me anymore Chase . I hate this, I hate that I have to go through this because of you!” I yelled almost breaking down.

He stare at me and that pisses me off but I have to avoid looking him in the eyes, I’d fall all over for him again if I do.

“What? You won’t say anything?.. Then I’ll just go ahead and tell you all I want to say” He arched his brows at me.

“I have feelings Chase! How can you be extra nice to me and expect me to not develop any feelings for you? I hate to admit this but I’m in love with you! I love you Chase, I fuckin do.. but I guess I have to stop now.”

“You don’t deserve my love one bit.. all you do is give me hopes that you feel the same way I do ! All you do is just tease me and give me high hopes, you don’t know this but you’ve broken my heart into so many pieces…”

“I hate you now Chase… I really do! You couldn’t even hear me out but you believed her immediately, why? Because she’s the one you love and I’m the one you love to pray with? Why!” I yelled at him in tears.

I cut him short when he want o say something to me. “I don’t want to hear your lies… Yesterday you asked me to be your date to a Ball Party coming up in two weeks times… I’m sorry Chase.. but I won’t be your date.”

“I have my feelings, I won’t let you hurt me over and over again. I know I’m not supposed to love you, yes! I have myself to blame.. I’m already here to pay off a debt I know nothing about and that makes me your slave, but I ended up falling in love with you because you gave me every reason to!”

“I’m glad I’m able to say this to your face.. Please Chase, I’d appreciate it if you stay away from me. Stop hurting me! I fuckin hate you so much ” I yelled.

Without waiting for his response, I rushed upstairs to my room in tears… I felt a little better that I’m able to pour out all my heart, it relives the pain I feel within.

But it’ll always hurt as long as I see him every freaking day. I regret ever letting myself to fall helplessly in love with him.

Be doesn’t deserve my love and I don’t deserve to get hurt just because I love him. I just want him out of my life for good… But I still have more days ahead.