chapter 15
Matt’s POV
As we are driving back to the apartment, I take the long way around. I am enjoying having her beside me, I’m watching her fidget she looks so nervous. Knowing that I make her uncomfortable is the highlight of my day.
As I look at her, I can tell that she is craving me. If she only knew the things I am going to do to her. Would she still be sitting beside me going along with all of this.
I am going to try to take it slow with this one. I want to try and enjoy everything about her. Before I take everything from her. Her sense of security and trust the way that she looks at the world will change forever.
She will be questioning every one of her moves before she makes it. Doubt will overcome her. She has no friends so I’m hoping she will come to me and she will feel closer to me.
She will let me consume every part of her. She will give her full self to me letting me be in control of all of it. That’s why most women don’t survive. They piss me off by defining me and that’s when I teach them a lesson. I show them by strangling them and burying them in a shallow grave.
I ask her how her day is which I already know since I’ve been watching her most of the day. When she asks about my day, I find it to be pretty humorous. I can’t really tell her that I’ve been watching her every move and how delightful it has been doing so.
Saying that out loud just might freak her out a little bit. Forgetting the fact that she never told me where she worked, I tried to make a joke out of it. I don’t want her to get suspicious especially this soon. She is so trustworthy of people not knowing how some people truly are in this world including myself.
I love the way she stutters when she is nervous, trying so hard to keep her cool. She struggles with it when she’s in my presence. I can’t believe she invited me into her apartment. I want to feel her body up against mine. I want to feel her breath on my skin. I want to know how she tastes. Her asking me to hang out, which makes me extremely happy knowing that the process so far is going smoothly.
As we were walking up to the apartment, I can tell that she’s getting excited and has never done anything like this before. I just know that she has only ever been with Jake. He has probably never satisfied her the way that she deserves to be satisfied.
When we get closer to the apartment, I see a woman standing at her door. I automatically become pissed. As she is walking over to the women, I can tell she doesn’t want it to look like we came in together. She looks back at me with sorry eyes. I just go to my apartment and allow her to handle her business.
That fire that I try to control, lights up, I’m so fucking angry. How could she choose that woman over me. I go to watch her. I want to know who this woman is and why she has so much power over her. It’s her mother, of course it is, she wants to control everything in Jessica’s life. That’s just not going to work. She wants her to get back together with Jake she chooses his side over her own daughter, that is despicable.
I wait for their argument to end she storms out and of course no one other than Jake shows up. Jessica doesn’t even allow him in the door. She tells him how it is and he tells her she’s going to be sorry. I feel sorry for her not sure why. I never really care how people feel but I need to make sure she’s okay after all that.
I knock on the door, I see her eyes light up when she answers it and realizes it’s me. I could tell that she seemed annoyed because she just did not want to deal with her mother and Jake situation. I just wanted to make sure she was okay she invites me in for a movie. I don’t want to keep her up too late because I know she has to work. She does not care she said that she will be off the next couple days. She’s not worried about being tired tomorrow.
She allows me to pick the movie. I find confusing the girls never ask what I want. They only care about them fucking selves. As we are watching the movie, I can tell that she’s watching me. The crazy part about it, her watching me doesn’t freak me out but actually turns me on.
I can tell that she’s not interested in the movie but she doesn’t complain about it. What is with this girl why is she so different from the rest. I don’t want to hurt her. I am afraid that I will do just that. My obsession has needs, will she be able to handle it? As the movie comes to an end she walks me to the door, says goodbye and I leave.
I can’t end the night like that, what a lovely night it was. She left me no choice, I want so much for her even more than myself which has never happened before. She had to deal with her mother choosing Jake over her. I need her night to a better so I go back over to the door and knock.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g
She answers the door. I look into her beautiful green eyes and I say nothing. I plant my lips on hers and there’s automatic flames. I am not sure why she makes me feel the way I do. It’s something that confuses me and terrifies me at the same time. I don’t want to pull away so I land my hands on her sides. Not sure of this feeling that I feel, it’s more confusing than anything.
I look into her beautiful green eyes and tell her, “I just wanted to give you a kiss good night.”