Chapter 87
Greyson’s POV:
I couldn’t believe it.
I couldn’t believe any of it, where did I go wrong? How was I the bad person for looking out for her and making sure she was okay?
I almost lost her a month ago! I had been stuck here praying to the Goddess every night, hoping that she was alive and I was the most lucky man on earth because I had almost lost her, in fact I did but through some miracle, I have her with me again and she wanted me to take risks with her safety?
How did she not understand that there was no way I could live without her? If anything ever happened to Freya, I wouldn’t survive it. She needed to know it.
Once the initial shock from her slamming the door in my face faded away, I pulled open the door and stepped into the night air. Freya’s scent lingered in the air and I followed it until I could see her walking just ahead of me.
I didn’t try to catch up to her or try to talk to her anymore. In fact, I maintained a good distance between us and just walked behind her, making sure she was okay and everything was well with her.
Things had been really rough for us both since she got back, I believed that Freya was trying to hard to forget everything that had happened, put it behind her and act like it never happened but I didn’t believe things worked like that.
She had been through a traumatic ordeal and those didn’t just fade away from one’s mind. It was good that she was trying to move on from it but trying to jump back into what life was for her before it all happened wasn’t the right way to go about it and I was trying to show her that.
Freya changed. Since she got back, it had felt like I was with a different person but it was something that I understood. Trauma changes people and it takes a lot of time, patience and as much help as they can get for them to reach a certain balance once more.
Every day, I also dealt with fear. Leaving either Jessy or Freya by themselves without being there in person to protect them or look after them and I was doing my best to move past it but it wasn’t as easy as I hoped it would be.
We were nearing the fields and I could see Freya slow down her pace. Walking into the fields brought back many different pleasant memories.
This was a place that had seen us through our love. We had come here at the beginning of things and had frequently come here even when things had gone a little sour.
The night air was light and the walk here and helped to release all the tension that had built up in my chest from the arguments in the house. All I wanted at this point was to hold Freya in my arms and just enjoy the beautiful evening together.
All I wanted was to apologize, make her see things the way I saw them, make her understand me, understand that I just wanted her to be safe.
There was no way she was safe in the open fields at this time of the night. Anybody and anything could choose to hurt her. She was like an easy prey at the moment. Just sitting down unknowingly at the end and looking into the distance before her, anyone could creep on her and try to harm her.
Maybe if I hadn’t followed her that would have been the exact thing that would have happened. Maybe there were people lurking in the shadows at this very moment, waiting for me to take my attention away from her so they could swoop in and take her away from me once more.
I couldn’t let that happen. I didn’t want that to ever happen and she had to see it too.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
I settled down on the grass a little distance from her. Not too close that my presence disturbed her thoughts but not too far that I couldn’t protect her if need be.
I failed Freya once before and if she wasn’t eventually fine now there is no way I would have forgiven myself for that. So now that I had the chance best believe I wasn’t giving it up for anything.
“I remember saying I wanted to be away from you Greyson, why are you here?” Freya called out.
I contemplated remaining in my spot and acting like I wasn’t here but maybe I wanted to inch closer to her or maybe I wanted to just end this feud as soon as possible, whatever it was made me move from my spot and walk the short distance to where she was sitting and then settled beside her.
I hated that she was looking away from me and that I couldn’t exactly see her face but I spoke regardless.
“How long have you known I was here?” I asked her.
“Since you began following me. You’re not supposed to answer a question with a question Greyson.” She said, finally turning her attention to me.
Freya’s beauty never seized to surprise me and take all the breath away from my lungs.
She was easily the most beautiful woman I ever met and even in the black and white of the night, where the moon wasn’t at it’s fullest and my wolf’s vision wasn’t at its peak, I could still see those features easily.
Even with everything she had been through, her beauty wasn’t affected one single bit. I sighed heavily, before breaking the eye contact and looking just ahead of me.
“I needed to be sure you’re okay Freya. You didn’t really expect me to leave you to roam around this late.”
“That’s exactly what I wanted Greyson, I asked you to leave me alone.”
“Well, you’ll have to forgive me Freya that’s not something I can do. You have no idea the things lurking in the corners, looking to hurt you. There’s a ton of peo-” I had been in the middle of a sentence when Freya stood up suddenly and interrupted me.
“I’m not going through this lecture with you anymore Greyson. Maybe you need to work on yourself and heal and maybe move on from the past alone. I don’t think my presence is helping you much, so I’m leaving and hoping that you see that I’ll be fine without you constantly breathing down my neck and being a mother hen.”
I was pretty sure my heart stopped working as it should at her words. I stood from my spot too.
“What are you saying Freya?”
“I’m saying that until you let go of this paranoia that has you in a chokehold, I don’t think we should be together anymore.”