CHAPTER 44
Giselle’s POV
Villain, sounds familiar right? They are always the struggle and nuisance for every heroine in a story. I thought I am the heroine on my own love life. I am living with my life to the fullest.
I have my career, my love, my everything. I was not ready for the turning table of this world. I was not ready for the change, where I would be the villain to my ex-boyfriend’s love story.
I was born into a very wealthy family. You could imagine my life with a golden spoon in my mouth ever since I was born until now… Both of my parents are well-known politicians. With a mother who is a mayor of our municipality, and a father who is a Senator and a former governor.
Everything went smoothly. I was getting what I wanted. Money and beauty that anyone could wish to have and possess. I considered myself lucky. I was living my life way too easily.
However, I reached a point where I needed to reciprocate what Mom and Dad had given me. I was a high school student at that time when my Dad called me from his office at our house.
Both my Mother and Father are two-faced devils. Money is a bit addicting, and they craved for it. Little did I know, they were starting to create a very hideous plan. They were planning to make me a bait for one of the sons of the Blackwood family.
A position in the government is not permanent. My Mom and Dad were struggling to rise in the business world. So, they thought that if I could get one of the Blackwood sons to be my boyfriend, it would secure our future. I wouldn’t have a problem, and neither would my parents.
At first, I was hesitant. I spoke to them at that time.
“Dad! Mom! This is so unfair. I want my freedom, and having a boyfriend is not on my list, but you are planning to push me into a marriage?” I said frustratedly. That is insane!
“Dear, we won’t be in government forever. Our future is still uncertain. You see our mansion? Your collection of bags? It could all be lost in an instant if we don’t make a move. Our place in the business world is also uncertain. And marrying the son of a business magnate, a Blackwood, will eliminate that uncertainty and lead to a much better future, right?” my mom said, and I knew she was manipulating me.
In my mind, I wondered, what else could I do? Maybe it was my time to play my part. I hated the idea of being used for wealth, but I couldn’t afford to lose everything I had.
I had grown accustomed to a life of luxury, being able to buy whatever I wanted. So, yes, I had no other choice but to do what my parents wanted.
I was baited into a blind date with the son of the most powerful tycoon. Lucas Blackwood was so handsome that night. You could see the mesmerizing look on my face at that time.
He was handsome, tall, and well-built. I didn’t know I would enjoy this kind of blind date. I mean, look, this guy in front of me was a total package. Handsome and wealthy.
I didn’t have a hard time. I learned that Lucas had a longtime crush on me. So yeah, I could tell it was going to be easy. We dated for three months, and before we graduated from high school, we became a couple. I said yes to him.
I also gave myself to him, my everything. He was my first… That night, the night we officially became a couple, was also the first night I lost my virginity. It was magical…
You could say it was wrong. We were both teenagers at that time. But in my mind, I knew he would be the one for me. I was expecting it, predicting it. It was as if nothing could separate us.
But who am I kidding? I wasn’t the one who controlled our destiny. Maybe there was a reason why the tables turned.
In college, I dreamed of becoming a model. I wasn’t sure before, but I was chosen as a model for TV commercials. It was nerve-wracking and exciting at the same time.Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.
Lucas supported me back then. He was there whenever I had a runway show or a photoshoot. I began to dream of becoming a supermodel, an international one.
I was young and ambitious. I already had a manager, and I was just one step away from becoming an international model. My first international runway show was going to be in Milan.
Unfortunately, unexpectedly, I became pregnant, without Lucas knowing. I was terrified when I learned I was pregnant. I was pregnant, and it was going to shatter my dreams.
Yes, I was young and ambitious. I wasn’t ready for this. I had just graduated, and my modeling career had just begun. My manager told me not to get pregnant.
I was building a name in the industry, and getting pregnant would ruin it all. I couldn’t let that happen.
It was my fault, but yes. I aborted my child. I still remember Clare was with me. She was the only one who knew my dark secret. It happened because Lucas and I were having a love quarrel. And that gave me an opportunity to execute my plan.
“God, Giselle! This is insane. You’ll carry the weight of this decision on your conscience forever! Aren’t you even a bit remorseful?” Clare said, trying to stop me again.
I glared at her irritably. “I’m too young to be a mother! Stop spouting nonsense, can’t you? You’re not helping!”
She sighed. “What if the Blackwoods find out? Aren’t you afraid of their reaction?”
I looked at her sternly. “If they find out, and they’ll only find out if you tell them. Don’t you dare, Claire. I’ll forget we were ever friends.”
Yeah, I had the pregnancy terminated back then. With the help of a local healer. I cried too, as it was painful emotionally, physically, and psychologically. Do I regret it? Yes, of course, but does that matter?
No, it doesn’t.
I continued pursuing my dreams. Lucas was by my side.
I couldn’t count how many times Lucas tried to propose to me over the next six years. But it wasn’t my priority at that time.
I wasn’t ready to get married. My parents were pressuring me to become a Blackwood sooner or later to increase our power and influence.
It was suffocating! Yes, I was deeply, madly in love with Lucas. But I wanted to make the most of my freedom for a while longer. I knew that once I had children, everything would change. There would be limits.
And I couldn’t afford to lose my shine. I was an international supermodel. I knew, even if Lucas didn’t, that I wouldn’t have achieved this without a price.
Yes, sometimes things happened between me and other modeling industry producers. I cheated on Lucas a few times. But it was for a purpose. Remember? Young and ambitious. There was no place in my heart or mind for the word ‘no.’
I had come a long way. But I didn’t know that, in my journey to success, I had lost the man who had held onto me for years. Lucas… He had given up on loving me. He surrendered his love. I tried asking help from Nicholas Rutherford but he flatly refused to help me. He just told me to move on and forget about Lucas Blackwood!
And God knows how painful that was. Especially since the reason for our breakup was my fault. I wasn’t prepared at that time. Lucas found out about the abortion, and he was furious. He might have killed me if he had wanted to.
But what hurt me more was finding out that he had a family now. He even had an eldest child! All these years, we were just fooling ourselves.
I confronted Lucas and his family. I couldn’t accept it! But I didn’t expect Lucas to humiliate me in front of his family. He revealed my secret abortion. This must be what Claire was talking about.
That I would always be haunted by karma. And it didn’t feel good at all. I found out that he was about to get married. He proposed to me, but he wasn’t marrying me. It was a sick joke… And I wasn’t prepared for it.
I couldn’t allow it to happen. So, I devised a plan, with Zach as my accomplice. Someone told me that this Rutherford guy was in love with Zara, my husband’s ex-wife.
I couldn’t let the wedding proceed. I couldn’t accept that I wouldn’t be the Blackwood in the end.
Zara was out of my way. She was taken by Nick, and I didn’t care about the rest of her stuff.
I executed my plan next. I wanted Lucas back… I wanted him, but he refused.
I was always by his side, wanting to go back to how things were. But, alas, there was no use.
I never thought the day would come when I would have to let Lucas go too. I wasn’t prepared, but I had to.
I regretfully turned to Zach for help. He was crazy, a psychopath, and obsessed. He needed to be stopped.
Now, I was meeting Lucas again. I promised him it would be the last time. I was about to leave for New York. I was going to stop chasing someone who couldn’t love me anymore. Those years weren’t wasted, right? Lucas loved me deeply for all that time. I would cherish those memories until my last breath.
We were at a café at that time. I was with Lucas, and he looked exhausted, tired, and sleep-deprived. He really loved Zara, more than he ever loved me. And maybe my decision would change their fate once again.
“I love you, Lucas. You can curse me until your last breath, but remember that I loved you. This will be the last time I tell you this before I let you go. Over all these years,” I said with a broken voice.
I didn’t realize I was already crying.
“In all the years you loved me, thank you,” I added. “All I want is your forgiveness. And I understand if you’re not ready to give it to me… Goodbye, okay?”
“Thank you too, Giselle. I don’t love you anymore, but you’ll always have a place in my heart… Thank you.”
I handed him a piece of paper. It had the address of an island, where Zara was.
Yes, this time, I won’t be the villain or the heroine. I’ll be the one making the right choice.
“Your answer is here.”