The Billionaire Mafia’s Slave

CHAPTER 66: I AM INLOVE WITH YOU

LILY’S POV

“Lily…”, He called and I gulped.

“Y-yes”, I whispered.

“What do our relationship mean to you?”, He asked and I bowed my head, he lifted my face by my chin, making me look straight into his lustful eyes

“Eh- I… I don’t understand”, I stuttered.

He wasn’t having it, he scoffed and turned away, shaking his head in disbelief.

‘What have I done wrong?’, I asked myself because I don’t understand why he is behaving this way. I can’t make out any word to ask him, I continued to stare at him then he sighed as if frustrated.

“I will be out for a minute”, Nikolai suddenly said, heading towards the door. I grabbed his strong arms with my tiny hands.

“Look, if there is an issue we better solve it now than wait till later. Running away won’t fix things”, I said to Nikolai. It is the truth, no matter what happened, we should always talk about it rather than walking away and avoiding the topic, or else things might escalate and I don’t want that to happen.

If Nikolai was mad at me over the way I behaved or what I said, he should tell me so I know what I did wrong.

Nikolai looked at my tiny hands grabbing his arms then my tiny frame, he sighed.

“Sure. Let’s talk about it”, He declared, taking my hand off his, he sat on the bed. I stood in front of him and we just stared at each other.

“Are you mad at me?”, I started. He shrugged.

“Should I be?”, He asked back.

“You are”, I responded.

“Am I?”, He replied, sounding sarcastic.

I hate that he was joking when I was trying to be serious.

“Can you be serious here?!”, I yelled, immediately regretting it.

Nikolai face changed from dark to darkest. He looked at me with no form of emotion, like he was staring at someone worth torture.

“I should be serious?…”, he said, standing up and taking big yet slow steps towards me, I gulped and made my little feet move backwards, eyes still on him.

“Ni-Nikola–“, I tried calling but he cut me off.

“Don’t you fucking say that to me! You are the one not giving your best here!”, He roared but I didn’t care, I was more offended by what he said.

“What do you mean by that?”, I paused and asked him.

“Are you offended?”, He asked with a smirk on his face, his steps stopping.

“Of course I am!”, I replied.

How dare he say that to me?! That I’m not giving my best in our relationship?

Fucking bastard!

We both paused, looking at each other as we tried not to say anything to hurt the other.

“Then why are you not interested in getting married?”, Nikolai asked in the most disappointed voice ever, I could see the hurt in his eyes. It was like a child finding out after eavesdropping on his parents that santa clause isn’t real.

Now I finally know why he was angry and my heart ached for him.

“Wha– I didn’t m-mean it that way–“.

“You said it three times… At the cliff and twice during breakfast. You make it look like us being together is just a fling”, Nikolai said.

“Isn’t it?”, I regretted it immediately it came out. I saw the disappointment in his face.

“So… what we have means nothing to you? It’s all a joke?”, He asked, stepping forward.

“Look, I di-didn’t mean it that way”, I said and it was true, I didn’t mean for all those words to come out the way it did. It was as if my brain was used to Nikolai being a bad guy and a womanizer, taking out the garbage when he was done with them. This was the only way it could protect me from getting hurt before it was too late.

“Fuck Lily! What do you take me for huh?! A heartless monster?!! You think I am using you?! I fucking… I fucking am in love with you!… The first person after Elena and you do this?!”, Nikolai roared, he was out of control. He cussed around and I felt like I should turn back the hands of time, I shouldn’t have said those hurtful things to him.

He just confessed to be in love with me and I felt I was the worse person in the world.

“You– you’re inlove with me?”, I asked in disbelief, walking towards him but he stepped back, hands in the air and my heart broke into a million pieces. I could feel the tears burning behind my eyes.

“Why do you care, not like you liked me or anything anyways”, He scoffed and the tears finally came down my cheeks.

“No, I-I do–“.

“I’m stepping out. I will be back before the ball to pick you up”, Nikolai said and walk to the door.

“WAIT!! Nikolai wai–“, I tried to stop him but he grabbed my hands and pressed them and I felt the pain, I couldn’t shout because I deserve it.

“Don’t fucking push my last buttons Lily”, Nikolai growled and I saw the monster in his eyes he has been suppressing, he let go of my hands and left the room, closing the door with a loud bang making me shiver.

I dropped to the floor and cried like never before, I felt so stupid and worthless.

‘He love me, he said he loves me’, I reminded myself of Nikolai’s words. I should have known without being told right?

It didn’t cross my mind because for starters he didn’t ask me to be his girlfriend officially, I thought since there was no label on it, it wasn’t valid.

‘Did you really need to be asked? You fucking dummy?!’, My inner thoughts scolded me, but this time she was right.

Nikolai confessed to having feelings and liking me in a garden, he takes care of me and is really possessive towards me, he makes sure no one bully me, not even his father. He looks at me like I’m the only thing that exists in his world, he introduced me to his family, he kisses me so passionately like he wants to get lost in my arms, he reminds me everyday of how beautiful I am, he watch me go to sleep and I feel his heavy stares when we eat with his family.

Is there any other definition of love? Did I really need closure?

I just hurt the man I love and he might hate me, he just compared me to Elena and I feel that gut deep in my belly building up. If he thinks so lowly of Elena, how about me?

“I’m so-sorry Nikolai”, I cried my eyes out. I didn’t have any phone to call him neither did I know his number, I want to talk to him and say how sorry I am.

I cried for a while before I heard a knock on the door.

“It’s me”, The person announced, it was Galina. I stood up, cleaning my face and eyes.

“Coming!”, I said still trying to wipe away any evidence of me crying.

I opened the door and Galina had a wide smile on her face but then it was replaced with worry when she saw me. She came inside and held my hands.

“Are you okay? Are you not feeling fine?”, She asked.

“Mhmh, I’m fine”, I replied, putting on a fake smile.

“I’m not that clueless Lily, it is obvious you were crying. See how red and puffy your eyes are”, Galina pointed out.

“Is it that obvious?”, I asked, trying to clean my face the more.

“What happened?”, She asked.

In as much as I like Galina and enjoy her company, I don’t feel like seeing anybody now. I just want to be left alone.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“Uhm- nothing”,: I said, looking away from Galina.

“Was it my brother?”, She asked and I froze.

‘How did she know’, I asked myself.

“Why would you think that? haha”, I said, laughing awkwardly and still avoiding her.

“Because Nikolai just bolted out of the mansion in full anger, like he was really to kill someone”, She uttered and I looked at her.

“Did he say anything to you or did you speak to him?”, I asked.

“He didn’t say anything… I asked him where he was headed but he didn’t even look at me”.

The tears came back more this time, Galina was shocked by my sudden outburst that she quickly hugged me, trying to calm me down.

“I fucked up big time Galina!”, I cried in her arms.