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Severed Heart (Ravenhood Legacy Book 2)

Severed Heart: Part 1 – Chapter 1

Part 1

“A BOY BECOMES A man when a man is needed.”

—John Steinbecknoveldrama

US PRESIDENT: RONALD REAGAN | 1981–1989
I TURN THE DIAL on the radio to find our favorite new Johnny Hallyday song when a woman’s voice sounds very loud through the speakers, making me jump. “. . . le président Américain Reagan a été abattu devant un hôtel Hilton à Washington—” US President Reagan was shot in front of a Hilton in Washington—
I turn it down so it doesn’t wake Papa from his nap and jump when someone pounds on the front door. “Matiiiis!”
He says Papa’s name again like we do when we play hide and seek. “Matiiisss!”
I move toward the door when the latch catches and stop when I see the man with the burnt face staring at me through the gap on the other side. “Delphine, where is Matis?”
When I don’t answer him, he smiles at me with crooked teeth. I hate the burnt man. He always tries to touch me when Papa doesn’t look, and Papa never looks when he plays cards.
“Open the door, Delphine,” he orders before he smacks the wood hard to scare me. I push at the door to show him he doesn’t frighten me and to try to close it in his ugly face. “Go away, my papa is sleeping, and you’re going to wake him up!”
He laughs in a way that’s not funny and yells at me to open it. When I don’t, he disappears from the door, and I push it closed. Turning to get Papa, the burnt man kicks the door open, and it hits me in the back. Screaming, I fall to the floor. When the man reaches for me, I jump to my feet as Papa runs into the room and starts to wrestle him while shouting at me. “Delphine, to the barn! Go!”
I know I should follow his orders like his good soldier, but I see the shiny side of a knife in the burnt man’s hand and warn Papa instead.
“The . . . barn, go!” Papa yells again, wrestling the burnt man for the knife as I look around for something to help him fight. Papa always tells me, ‘a man who doesn’t choose a side is a man in the way,’ and I’ll be in his way if I don’t choose his side and try to help him. When the burnt man smiles at Papa, pushing the knife closer to his throat, my tummy flips. “Don’t worry, Matis. By nightfall, she’ll be a woman.”
“Delphine, go!” Papa yells again the way he does when he’s really mad at me while he pushes the sharp side of the knife away from his neck. Turning to follow orders, I crash into another man and hear him curse. Looking up and up, my head starts to burn as water drips down the back of it to my neck. The man tilts his head as he stares down at me, and Papa screams at him not to touch me. When I look back at Papa, I watch him push the knife toward the burnt man’s throat before the man in front of me knocks me to the floor. My eyes go fuzzy, and I stop and wipe the water away with my hand so I can see. When Papa calls for me, I crawl toward his voice, but when I put my hand back on the floor, I see it’s not water in my eyes—it’s blood.
Feeling dizzy, I lay on the floor and try not to fall asleep as Papa and the second man shout at each other. Rolling on the carpet toward Papa’s voice, I stop when I see the burnt man’s open eyes staring back at me.
He’s dead.
Papa killed him.
I’m glad. He is not a good man. Papa said so. He said he plays cards with bad men to find out their secrets.
Looking back up at Papa as he stands from the floor, I see he’s very, very angry as the man he’s yelling at kicks me in the stomach. “It’s much too late, Matis. Your payment is due, and it’s time to collect.”
“The only thing you’re collecting today, you fucking pig, is your death, one I’m all too happy to give you,” Papa says through his teeth, his voice still very angry but very quiet. When Papa moves toward the man to deliver his death, I wonder if he’s going to punish me for not following his order to go to the barn. Maybe he is proud of me for fighting. Before I can ask him, I fall asleep.
* * *
“Wake up, little flower. Please don’t break my heart. Please,” he whispers, his hand on my cheek.
“Papa,” I call for him. “I can’t open my eyes.”
His breath tickles my nose as he does his tired sigh, like when I break a dish or dirty the carpet after playing in the creek.
“You can see, little flower. Open your eyes.”
I try hard and open them to see that Papa’s eyes are red and puffy. He’s been crying. I know because he cried for a long, long time after Maman told us to ‘rot in our filthy life.’ I wasn’t sad when Maman left like Papa was. She was mean to me and slept all the time.
Papa was the only one who would play with me. Brush my hair. Bring me toys. It was always Papa who read me stories and tucked me into bed.
“Papa.” I wipe at the little spot of blood on his cheek. “Did you hit your head, too?”
“No, little flower.” Papa closes his eyes and begins to cry. “Forgive me, Delphine.”
“Matis, if you want to save her from your fate, we have to leave now.” The voice comes from a man standing at my bedroom door. I try to look at him, but Papa uses his finger to turn my face to his. The light from the chandelier hanging above him hurts my eyes. Papa gave it to me as a birthday present and told me all princesses have rooms with chandeliers. I told him that I wanted to be the prince because they got to fight. He laughed and laughed before promising not to bring me anything else for a princess and brought me a sword the next time he came back from playing cards—my sword! I should have gotten my sword when the burnt man came.
“Delphine, do you remember when I told you one day you would have to be a soldier?”
“Yes, I am ready!” I tell him, trying to sit up, but he keeps me in bed.
“Good. I need you to follow orders now and do exactly as I tell you, understand?”
“Yes, Papa.”
“We have to go now!” the man shouts from my door. “I’m not dying for your kid, Matis!”
“I need you to go with this man and do what he tells you,” Papa says, lifting me from my bed. He walks over and puts me into the man’s arms, handing him my suitcase with the wildflowers that look like the flowers we dance in. The man stares down at me, and I decide I don’t want to follow orders tonight, but Papa shushes me.
“I’m begging you . . . bring her to my nephew. Francis will raise her as his own. Please get her there safely,” he tells the man. “I’ll pay you any price you ask.”
“As if you’ll survive,” the man tells Papa. “Making promises you can’t keep is what got you in this mess, Matis.”
“Forget how you feel about me, just this once, please.”
“I’m here, aren’t I?” He talks funny when he doesn’t speak French. Papa told me these people are called the British.
“Papa, I don’t want to follow orders tonight. My head hurts,” I tell him, and he jerks his chin to quiet me.
“Here.” Papa puts a roll of money in the man’s hands. “This is all I have. I was trying to save enough to get her out of here, but I don’t understand . . . why aren’t they here?” Papa starts to cry again.
“Even now, you’re still maintaining the lie?” the British man says.
“I don’t have time to argue with you,” Papa sighs, wiping his face.
“You could try to run,” he tells Papa before looking at me like I’m filthy, “and save me the headache.”
Papa shakes his head. “It’s too late. They’ll never stop now. Above all else, just make sure you aren’t followed.”
“For old times’ sake, Matis.” He looks at Papa like he’s filthy too. “Honestly, those bastards are doing us all a favor by ridding the world of you, and you have my word that if it’s within my power, no harm will come to her tonight. Though for that to be a possibility, we have to leave right fucking now.”
“P-papa?” I whisper, looking at the man and back to Papa. I do not like this man or the way he talks to my papa, but he nods to the British man before he looks down at me, his eyes getting redder.
“I love you, little flower,” he whispers before bending and kissing my head next to where it hurts so much. “I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. Forgive me.” Papa does the sign of the cross on my forehead with his finger, closes his eyes, and speaks English to the British man. “Take her. Go.”
“N-no, no, Papa!” I scream as the man starts to walk away, and Papa cries into his hands. “Papa, no, no orders tonight. Please!” I shout, feeling sleepy again as the man holds me tighter to him, walking faster.
“P-please, Papa!” I wiggle in the man’s arms. “I’m ready to be your soldier, not his!” I shout over the British man’s shoulder as Papa comes out of my room and grabs my hand, following the man holding me down the hall.
“Close your eyes, Delphine,” Papa orders me so I won’t see the men he delivered death to in the living room. Closing my eyes, I hold Papa’s hand really tight so he can’t let go. When we are outside, snow hits my nose and cheeks, and the wind makes my head hurt more. “I’m sorry I didn’t go to the barn. I’m sorry,” I tell Papa. “I’ll be good. I promise. I’ll follow orders, your orders!”
“Wait, please . . . one more minute,” Papa cries to the man.
“Enough with the melodrama, Matis! It’s probably already too late!”
Papa cries harder and follows us down the creaky porch steps before kissing my hand. “Remember what I taught you?”
“Yes, Papa.”
“Remember, little flower. Remember everything I told you. Never forget!”
“I’ll remember, I promise!”
Closing his eyes, Papa kisses my hand one more time before he lets it go, and I scream for him as the British man starts to run with me in his arms. Papa calls after me through the snow and tells me that it’s okay. That it’s all going to be okay and to go with the man—that he will keep me safe. That he loves me. That I’m his good soldier. That he’s sorry, but he cries the whole time! If everything is okay, he wouldn’t cry so hard!
“No! Papa!” I slap the British man’s face, and he curses and drops my suitcase. It falls open on the ground as the man puts me into his car. I kick at him over and over as he gathers my clothes, cursing as he pushes my legs and suitcase inside. “Papa, please don’t let him take me! I’m sorry I didn’t go to the barn! I’m sorry!”
“Delphine, be my soldier and do as you’re told!” Papa yells through the wind, but I can’t see him anymore through so much snow! The man slams the door on me as lights flash through the window of his car.
“They’re here!” the man calls back to Papa before he gets into the car.
“Get her out of here!” Papa yells, and the man starts to drive away before I throw up on the floor.
“Oh, bloody fucking hell,” the British man says, his eyes on the lights coming through the glass before a loud bang comes from the house behind us. I know that sound. Papa is shooting from his big, big gun. The cars with lights have more bad men coming, and Papa is shooting at them to stay away. He’s fighting again.
“I have to go back!” I scream at the British man. “I have to fight!”
I pull at the car door handle, but the man pulls my arm to keep me inside and goes faster.
“Come on, Matis.” The man says Papa’s name like he’s praying as another loud bang comes from the house and shakes our car.
Papa shoots at the lights coming again and again, and one car lights fire before it goes into the river. More lights come as the man goes faster and faster, turning this way and that way.
“Take me back!” I order like Papa does.
“Shut up,” the British man tells me as he turns the wheel. “Keep going, Matis, just a little longer,” he whispers, looking into the mirror on the glass.
“Are you stupid?” I tell the British man. “He can’t hear you whisper!”
He laughs like I told him a joke before I count three cars turning onto our road. The man drives faster and faster, and I close my eyes to ask God to give Papa enough bullets for the big guns to shoot all the bad men.
“Don’t look back,” the man tells me as he starts to drive really, really, really fast. Snow makes it hard to see through the window, and my tummy hurts when I can’t see our house anymore.
“We go far way now!” I shout in English. “I am Matis soldier! Not for yours! Take Delphine back house, help fight!”
The man continues to drive, and I know I said the words right.
“You understand my English!” I yell at him. “I tell you to back!” When he doesn’t listen, again, I curse at him. “Imbecile!”
“Definitely Matis’s daughter,” the man laughs, and I know he’s making fun of me and Papa. I decide I do not like British men.
“I am Matis soldier!”
“Sure you are, kid.” He says this as if he doesn’t believe me. But I am a soldier. Papa taught me how to march and salute. How to make fires. How to fish. How to shoot—not the big gun yet. How to skin a rabbit and take out its entrails. To cook. Which mushrooms are poisonous, and which flavor food. He taught me tactics and intelligence he learned when he was a special soldier. He taught me that keeping clean keeps you close to God. He reads to me the stories of other soldiers. Of wars. Of the news. I decide the man driving does not know Papa. I stare at the side of his head as I speak more English. “You make Delphine very angry.”
He smiles. “Get used to it.”
He is not a nice man, but I know he doesn’t want to hurt me like the burnt man did. Papa says he will keep me safe, and I believe him.
“You soldier, like Matis?” I ask in English.
“Yes. Long ago, when he was a respectable man.” The British man goes faster, screaming when his car spins round and round before it finally stops. He curses when I throw up on his floor again and on my clothes and my suitcase. I wipe my mouth and look around to see lights shining through the back window of the car.
“The bad men are chasing us!”
“I’m aware, Delphine, Christ, be quiet! And I’m taking you away from the bad man,” he yells back, rolling down his window. He shoots a gun at the car chasing us over and over again until we can’t see the lights anymore, and lets out a long breath.
We drive for a long, long time before the British man stops the car and tells me to get down in my seat while he watches the road for more lights. After a long time, I try hard not to fall asleep when he finally speaks.
“Your father might have borne the worst luck, but as it seems, you won’t be suffering the same tonight. Looks like you live to see another day.” He presses his hand to his face. “Christ, that was close.”
“Take Delphine back house. Matis need . . .” I try to think of the English word. “His medisis-medicines spoon. I know where. Only I help him.”
“Life is cruel, and it would do you a bit of good to learn it early.” He turns in his seat toward me. “As intelligent as you might be for one so young, you’re utterly ignorant in judgment of allegiance because your papa is the bad man, little flower. A weak, pathetic drug addict.” The man curses and shakes his head as he turns the key. “So weak that he made another bad bet because he didn’t have anything to fill his precious spoon.”
“Papa not bad man,” I whisper, staring at the side of his head. I hope he can see he’s making me angry and that I think he is an imbecile. “You tell lies.”
“You don’t seem to be a soldier that follows orders”—he looks down at me in my seat—“so maybe that’s why he bet you.”
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