Planned Baby

Chapter 39 Girl in his dream

“I’m sorry Ulysses, I can’t tell you about that.”

My forehead creased. “Why?”

“Your parents ask me not to tell you about her because they are afraid that you will remember everything and you will try to kill yourself again.” He said in a calm voice.

“Did my parents know about Ellie?” I asked him.

I’m a bit confused because when Ellie and I talk to them, they act as if they don’t know my story with Ellie. If Quen is saying now that my parents were the ones who ask him not to say anything to me, then they knew my relationship with Ellie during our college days. Why are they acting as if they are clueless about this thing?

“They knew that you had a girl you like in the Philippines. But they don’t that the girl was Ellie. They did not ask for any details about her because their main concern was to keep the girl a secret to you.”

I’m a bit satisfied knowing that my parents are not pretending about Ellie. I also understand why they came up with that plan. I messed up big time.

“I understand why you guys chose to keep it a secret from me. But now is different. I have Ellie and the twins with me now, there is no reason for me to kill myself. I feel guilty and sorry for them but it will not end up like last time. I will think Ellie and the twins first before myself.” I told him. Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.

“I’m sorry bro but I still can’t tell you. I don’t want to take that risk. Especially now that you and Ellie are family now. Ellie also wants you to stop digging about your past with her.”

I was stunned by his last statement. “How did you know that Ellie wants me to stop digging my past?”

“Ellie went to me yesterday. She asked a favor from me.”

I furrowed. “What favor is that?”

“Did Ellie not tell you that she met Hadley here in my office the other day?” He asked.

“Ellie told me that she met Hadley but did not give all the details. She just told me that Hadley is determined to win me back. Are you still not able to win her Quen? Seriously?! You have five years to win her heart!”

He chuckled. “Yes, I have five years to win her heart but I chose not to.”

I’m confused. “But why? You love her, right?”

He nodded. “Yes, I did.”

“Did? Meaning past tense?”

He laughed aloud. “Is it that hard to believe?!”

“Hell yes! You are head over heels to her. I can’t believe you fell out of love with her.”

He shook his head. “I did not fall in love with her. I still love her but not romantically, more like a friend or a sister to me.”

My jaw dropped. “What really happened? How did you realize all these?!”

I’m eager to know the things I missed about his life.

“Simple, I found the girl I truly love.” He said then smirked.

“Who is she?” I curiously asked.

“That’s a secret. You don’t have a right now to know things about me.”

I chuckled. “Really Quen?! Quit your pussy act bro! I know the reason why you are acting like this.”

My friendship with Quen has a very strong foundation. It can’t be ruined simply because of a girl. We will never break the bro code. I knew even before that he had a reason why he insists to end our friendship.

Flashback

“Bro, I think, I have another memory that I lost aside from the day of the accident and the day I tried to kill myself.”

I just arrived in America. My parents decided to send me here to help me recover from my accident and trauma. They even scheduled me to a known psychiatrist to help me cope up with my traumatic experience. I lost some of my memories but I am not sure if the only memory I lost is the day of the accident until the day I committed suicide.

They chose to send me here because the two most important people in my life were here. Kaela, my sister, and Quen, my best friend.

He swallowed hard and looked nervous. “Why do you think so?”

“I tried to recall my stay in the Philippines. There is this girl that I am close with but I can’t remember the name nor the face of it. The memories were a blur but I’m sure that it’s a girl I am close with. I asked my college friends but they also can’t remember her.” I told him.

I keep on seeing a girl in my dream. My heart is reacting crazily whenever I met the girl. It was blurry but I feel like all those are not an illusion. What I am seeing in my dreams was part of the memories I lost. I am sure of it because I always end up crying as if I lost a big part of my life. I’m certain that she is real.

“Maybe because she doesn’t really exist. Maybe it’s a side effect from your accident.” Quen said but his voice is a bit unsure. He sounded more like he is making excuses.

“No bro, I’m sure about it. For sure I talk to you about her.”

He averted his gaze. “I can’t remember.”

I look at him intently, he looks uneasy.

“Are you sure?” I said in a serious voice.

He nodded then he tried to change the topic. Since then, whenever I ask him about the mysterious girl, he always tried to change the topic. There are also times where he will avoid me.

Quen’s action is a giveaway for me. He definitely knows something. He is my best friend for Pete’s sake! It’s so impossible that he knows nothing about it. My parents and even my sister may miss something about my life but not Quen. He knew everything about me, even the things that happened in the Philippines.

I just don’t know why he is keeping it from me. Is it because I tried to kill myself? What’s the connection of that girl in my suicide attempt? Did she do something for me to end my life? Is Quen trying to shun the girl from my life?

“Hi, Kade!”

I look at the girl who suddenly clings to my arms. It was Hadley. She was the girl my best friend likes. Unfortunately, this girl claims that she is in love with me. It all started when Quen started to avoid me. He will ask this girl to entertain me because he needs to do something, but I know that was just an excuse.

This girl confesses her feelings to me and I always rejected her. One of the reasons is because my best friend is in love with her. And also, because I still can’t move on from the girl in my dream. But she just won’t stop chasing me, until one day she did something so crazy that gave Quen a reason to completely avoid me.

“You traitor!” Quen went to me in pure rage and punch me in the face.

It was so fast and I had no time to dodge his punch. Hadley screams because of shock from Quen’s action.

“What the?! What’s your problem bro?!” I hissed.

“Don’t play innocent with me. I introduce you to Hadley for you to have a friend since you don’t know anyone except Kaela and me, but I did not ask you to steal her from me!” He said angrily.

“Quen what are you saying?! He is not stealing me from you because I was never yours!” Hadley butt in after she recovers from her shock.

I saw the pain in Quen’s eyes as he heard it straight from the girl, he likes but he tried to ignore her and he looks at me with more intensity.

“You know that I don’t like her. She was the one who is chasing me. I never flirted back. You knew I will never steal a girl from you. I know she’s off-limit and also you knew I was into the girl in my dream!” I defended myself.

My words made Hadley feel offended. Her tears welled up and she walk out.

“Liar! If you did not give in to Hadley’s chasing then why are you engaged with her?” Quen asked angrily.

My eyes widen. “What are you saying? I’m not engaged to anyone, especially to her!”

He smirked. “Go and ask your parents about it. You just broke our bro code. I will never forgive you.”

End of Flashback

“I’m not a pussy! Stop calling me that.”

I was back from reminiscing the past when I heard Quen’s voice.

“Quen quit the act. I know why you are trying so hard to avoid me. It’s about Ellie and the reason why I committed suicide. I won’t force you anymore. Just quit the act.”