Not Just A Luna; I Am Alpha!

Xander

It was only a dream. Thankfully, it was just a dream, though it seems real to me. It happened more than a month ago, but I couldn’t find a way to forget it. Seeing Chas cry and call out my name while I slowly close my eyes is very painful, thinking it will be the last time that I am going to see her face. The last time that I will be able to feel her warmth.

The sadness and anguish that consumed me didn’t leave me even until today, and I couldn’t comprehend the thought of leaving Chassy at this time. I shouldn’t leave her alone at this point in time. She needs me to fight those vampires, and I didn’t want Silas alone to be by her side when the war happened. It was the reason why I neglected her, so I could stand beside her when she needed someone to protect her.

“Xander,” Limuel called out. I looked at him and found him doing the same intently as if trying to find something out. “Is there a problem?” He asked. His tone was that of a friend who was sincerely worried. “Is there anything you wish to tell me or that bothers you?”

I breathed heavily before I started. We were on the training ground, watching the warriors do their daily sparring. “How long has it been since Chas came and informed us about the incoming war with the vampires?”

“Months. It has been months, and the attack that we were expecting didn’t happen.” He answered.

“Because Silas turns out to be Chas’ mate as well.” I met his gaze of disbelief, but after awhile, his face turned serious.

“Then something bigger might happen instead.” He replied, and I nodded. After that dream, I started to believe that way. Chas and Silas wouldn’t be mates for no reason.

“And I’m afraid that I may not be able to see that, so I want to tell you to do everything in your power to protect your Luna.” I continued, and now his forehead is creasing.

“What are you talking about? Of course, that’s already a given. But you are her mate and an alpha who is more capable of protecting her than me.”

“As I’ve said, I don’t think I will be able to stand beside her when that happens.”

“Since when did you become like this? Your confidence is depleting; did something happen? Tell me what bothers you so I will know what to say.” He replied impatiently. So I told him about my dream. About how I lose my cool when the rogue taunts me with Chas’s bond with Silas.

“Are you thinking that it will happen? It’s just a dream, Xander,” he said afterwards. “And if it will, you already know what will happen, so you just have to learn to control yourself.”

“I know, and I have thought about it as well, but what if it was only a sign that I was going to lose to someone? That it was inevitable? What if it was a sign for me to know that I won’t be able to be with Chas anymore in the future, just like what that rogue had said?”

“Then be thankful and make the most of the days that you are with her.” Limuel said. It was harsh, and if he wasn’t my friend, I would have given him a punch on the face. He has a point, but my heart didn’t want it. Because the truth is, I want to be with my mate forever. Something I can’t give to her, but Silas could.

My eyes fluttered open, the remnants of a haunting dream lingering in my mind. A sense of foreboding gripped me as I tried to shake off the disorienting fog that clung to my thoughts. The dream, vivid and unsettling, had taken me to a place of imagined fears and insecurities, casting a shadow over my waking moments.

“Xander,” Limuel caught my attention again. “I know how much you love Luna, and I understand your worry. Even if I were in your position, I don’t think I would be able to stop myself from worrying and feeling jealous. So, don’t think that I am saying this because I don’t know how you are feeling right now. I am not only your friend but your beta as well. I am here to remind you that, as Alpha, you have to keep yourself strong and must be a critical thinker at all times for the betterment of the pack whose members are relying on you, putting their trust in you that you will never let them down.”

“I know that, but-”

“Your mate is important to us as well. She is our Luna too, and not yours alone. If the moon goddess has a plan for all of us, we won’t be able to stop it from happening because it is her will. I’m sure that she has a good reason for whatever you are thinking to happen, but rest assured that it is not for the betterment of our pack alone but for the whole supernatural beings.” He stopped me from saying what I was going to say.

Then I found myself contemplating the ephemeral nature of my existence, a mortal tethered to the relentless march of time. In the dream, I faced the stark reality of my mortality, an inevitability that threatened to sever the thread connecting me to Chassy. It was a vision of a future where I would die while she, my mate, remained forever untouched by the passage of years because of Silas.

The mere thought of losing her to the inexorable march of time sent a pang of longing through my heart. In that dream, I glimpsed an eternity with Silas, a vampire who could offer Chassy an immortal existence. A union that transcended the limitations of time, where they would traverse the centuries together, locked in an unending embrace.

As I grappled with the remnants of the dream, an unsettling question lingered in my mind: Could I truly provide Chassy with everything she deserved? Silas, the vampire elder, stood as a symbol of eternal companionship, a prospect that promised an unending bond with the woman I loved.All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.

A surge of conflicting emotions washed over me. On one hand, the dream had tapped into my deepest fears-the fear of being unable to offer Chassy the longevity she might desire. On the other hand, there was an unspoken acknowledgment of Silas’ ability to grant her a life unbound by the constraints of time.

I knew that Silas was not just a rival for Chassy’s affections; he represented an alternative, a pathway that diverged from the limitations of mortality. The dream had forced me to confront the fragility of my mortality and the transient nature of our time together.

In the waking world, my thoughts turned to Chassy, who was now in the Silver Moon Pack doing her Alpha duties, oblivious to the turmoil within me. As I remember how she looks when she smiles at me, I ached with a love that transcended the boundaries of time. Silas and the dream were mere specters, reminders of the uncertainties that loomed in the shadows.

Yet, despite the insecurities that haunted me, I am determined to cherish every fleeting moment with Chassy. Our love, though bound by the passage of time, was a force that defied the limitations of mortality. The dream, while unsettling, catalyzed for me to appreciate the present, to revel in the beauty of our shared moments, and to reaffirm my commitment to the love that bound us together, even in the face of dreams that threatened to unravel it.