The Awkwardness After
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While Mandy had the best sleep that night, poor Christian was troubled throughout the night. The three words kept repeating themselves in his head over and over, and each time it only got louder. He had to leave the bed and lay on the sleeper sofa in their room before he was able to catch some sleep.
He was happy she said it, but he was sad she said it first. He wanted to be the first to say it to her, and it made him feel like he didn’t love her just enough as she loves him.
Gosh, he was crazy about this woman. He had the most insane Obsession over her like he would go through a magazine to have a look at her after that night. He stalked her on social media and it was so crazy that he even had to stalk her most times to work until he got a way in to work for her.
Christian wanted her so badly that he was happy she was pregnant with his baby. He wanted her so badly that he wanted to be the first one to say “I love you”, the first and only one who she spent forever with. He was willing to be everything and do everything for her but Mandy kept beating him up to it and it made him sad.
He didn’t want her to see that she was the only one being vulnerable in their relationship and he was not certain if he even wanted to say it now. Cause he wasn’t sure what was going to happen next after the baby was here. He didn’t know if forever was even settled, though he desperately wanted it to be true.
Mandy turned around on the bed, and touched the other side of the bed, hoping to rest her hands on Christian’s body but it felt empty. She opened her eyes and yawned a bit to find it empty. She navigated her eyes across the room to find him lying on the sleeper sofa which made her smile.
“God, did I push him last night? My bump?” She yawned and smiled at her thoughts while she pulled the duvet off and grabbed her rope from the edge of the bed and wore it quickly.
She got down and dragged the duvet lazily from the bed and walked over to the sofa using it to cover his body while she kissed his forehead.
“My man. My husband,” she pulled back and blushed at her thoughts covering her mouth and squealing a bit as she got a perfect view of his face ogling to herself.
“Gosh, he’s so handsome,” she walked to the shower smiling to herself while flashes of their intense sex last night flashed through her mind.
She hummed to herself while washing her face, as she got ready for the day.. she washed off the foam from her face and grabbed her brush ready to brush her teeth. While at it, she rewinds to last night’s scene when she remembers herself lazily saying I love you to Christian.
“Shit,” she said and dropped the brush on the washbasin, staring at her reflection in so much shock.
“Why are you so weird?” She bit her lower lips, and quickly covered her face with her hands as a tear dropped from her eyes. She felt her eyes water even more while she held onto the washbasin catching her breath.
“Oh my gosh, Mandy? Why did you have to say it?”
“Fuck these hormones” She burst out in another round of silent cries while sniffing in so that Christian doesn’t wake up and walked in on her crying.. she stayed in that position for a while and after gaining composure she stared at the mirror and cleaned her face while smiling at her face.Content is property © NôvelDrama.Org.
“You did great Mandy” She rubbed her chest while exhaling and inhaling at the same time
Nothing is wrong with you expressing yourself” she told herself continuing the process of talking to her inner child.
She rinsed her brush and dried her face, before preparing a warm bath for herself. She walked back to the room still clad in her room, noticing that Christian was up and was organizing their bed making her smile brightly.
“Thank you, baby,” she hugged him from behind, her stomach in the way a bit. But Christian immediately turned around and hugged her warmly too.
“Good morning Mama,” he said and kissed her forehead, while she blushed heavily, as his hands were wrapped around her.
“I see you slept on the sofa,” she giggled and pointed to it, while he immediately pulled away and scratched the back of his neck awkwardly
“Yeah. That happened,” he forced a smile while she looked at him weirdly for a brief seconds before nodding in understanding.
“Well, I hope I didn’t say anything weird last night,” she laughed and walked to the other side of the bed, helping him dress it properly.
“Of course not, I mean we both slump to sleep immediately,” Christian quickly said and they both laughed awkwardly dressing the bed.
She was glad he didn’t hear her. And he was glad she didn’t remember giving him a shot.
“Okay, I’m going to have a shower,” she rushed out of the room.
“Yeah, imma join you soon,” he rushed to respond pointing in her direction while scratching his neck with his other hand…
The couple had breakfast awkwardly, stealing glances from each other and not really saying anything about how they felt.
“Want me to drop you off at work?” Christian asked her, but she was quick to reject the offer.
“No, baby. I’m going to find my way,” he nodded and kissed her lightly on the cheeks before leaving, while Mandy immediately released a deep breath…
“Damn, what’s going on?” She asked no one in particular. She grabbed her bag and her iPad from the table and then walked out of the house heading for her car.