I’m Just His Wife

“Why were you telling me all this?” I almost whispered the question.

“Because I don’t want you to perish either! Ryan, I thought he was going to die because of the amount of blood he lost but I did everything to keep him alive. I don’t want to experience that again. I don’t want my brother to escape. Mom and Dad were gone. , will you also be lost to me? ” He had an annoyed question.

My tears flowed I didn’t expect to fall. Why so? Why did I still appreciate his loving birthright to us even though he left us then?

“Our parents died because of an accident. Car accident …” I insisted even though I already believed in him. I hope what he says was not true, that he was just lying.

Then he laughed. “Car accident? Really ?! And you believe it?”

I just swallowed and didn’t answer. I knew from the start that something’s suspicious on it. That same day, my parents had an accident, Kuya Ryan was stabbed and … I was shot. I knew those three could possibly have a connection but I just ignored it because I thought it was all just a coincidence.

“Damn, Rigella! Open your eyes! Wake up to the truth. That group, they want to take us one by one because we were a threat to their businesses. And there you have it, Mom and Dad were gone. Do you still want the time to come? You were doomed and then you will believe ?! ” He tightened his grip on my arm so I winced.

I folded my arms and shook my head. I will not fully believe in him until I can see for myself.

“You’re just lying.” I said coldly and pushed him hard so he could let go of my arm.

Without emotion I walked away. I felt that Ate Rina did not follow me and she just followed me with her gaze.

“It’s up to you if you still don’t want to believe me. You’ve really slept with that animal. But you’ll always remember that I’m always watching over you. Be careful, Andrea …”

I stopped walking for a moment. My second name was what he always calls me but when he was serious he calls me Rigella. She’s the reason why I hate people when they’re calling me Andrea.

I bent down and wiped my wet cheeks and eyes and then continued walking.

I don’t know what I can do once I know the truth and the lie.

When I got to the parking lot I saw Ivan leaning against the snout of his car while holding his cellphone with it glued to his ear. Looks like someone called him.

I hid in the back of his car and peeked at him a bit.

“I’ll go back to the org, of course … Tell uno that I’m just taking care of a lot so I can’t go … Aberya? Where? .. Then do something about it! was it also such a simple transaction of guns and ammos will you still consult with me? .. Yes, one day I will only go … Alright, I’ll hang up. ”

Org? Transaction? Guns and ammos? Confirmed. Why don’t I know all this? I am his wife but he never once informed me.

His forehead furrowed and he turned in my direction so I immediately hid.

I was nervous when I saw him approaching in my direction. I closed my eyes emphatically.

I heard a ringing so I woke up. I saw him stop and someone pressed his cellphone. He pressed it to his ear and I saw he was serious.

“Lara.”

It was as if something was pinching my heart. Lara called?

“I can’t come with you today … What the hell! You’re pregnant and yet you’re doing work? Why were you on taping? .. were you out of your mind ?! Damn it! .. In a I’m leaving in a day … Fine, I love you. Tsss. I will- ”

That’s enough, it hurts.

Out of nowhere I suddenly came out of hiding in the car. He turned his back on me so he couldn’t see me.

“Ivan …” I called to him.

He seemed to stiffen in his stance but he immediately confronted me.

“You … You were there before?” I could hear the nervousness in his voice.

I tried to smile. You were a liar, Ivan. “Nope. I’ll just arrive too. Let’s go?”

He nodded and turned away from me first. “Rigella’s here. We’ll talk again later. Bye.” He tapped something on his cellphone again and pocketed it in his pants pocket.

He turned to me again and smiled. He came over to me and put his arm around me. He also kissed my forehead.

“I love you …” he said. Really, Ivan? Did you tell the two women I love you at these times? Which of those two was true?

I smiled sweetly at him. “I love you too. Tara na?” aya ko.

“Sure. You need to rest again and then Ice was already waiting at home.”

He helped me into the car.

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I pulled my two suitcases out from under my bed. Only now did I have the right time to leave.

I took in then the annulment papers. This time, I’m pretty sure of what I’m going to do.

I stood up and stared at the envelope. This was the right time.

“You killed my parents and my baby, Ivan. Maybe now you’re happy. And, I’m leaving you to make you happier. That’s all I’ve wanted in my whole life …” I whispered to myself while staring still in the envelope.

End of Flashback

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Andrea’s POV

It’s better to have nobody, than to have someone who’s half there or doesn’t want to be there.

It’s better to feel alone than to be with someone and still feel alone or feel like you’d rather be alone. Being alone doesn’t mean you have to be miserable. In fact, independence was attractive. It means that you were capable of taking care of yourself and not relying on anyone else for validation.

It’s better to depend on no one than to depend on someone who always ends up disappointing you or failing to meet your expectations. Don’t depend too much on anyone in this world. Even your shadow leaves you when you’re in darkness.

It’s better to not have anyone to care about, than to care about someone who enjoys hurting you and causing you pain. It’s better to not be close with anyone, than to feel attached to someone you feel so distant at the same time.

It’s better to be sad by yourself, than to be with someone who always make you even more miserable. It’s better to know what you want on your own, than to be with someone else who does nothing but confuse you and make you doubt things. It’s better to be happy with yourself, than to place your happiness in someone who takes it for granted. It’s better to it’s better to love yourself than to love someone else who doesn’t love you just as much or not at all.

Everything will be okay, and you will be alright. Just continue life and live it to the fullest.