I Rejected You, Alpha

ELEIA’S POV

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Having s*x doesn’t solve any of our problems, but it sure as hell a good distraction from reality and all the feelings .

Aiden and I haven’t slept because we were up and all night, going at it over and over and now we’re just laying in bed, the room gloomy from the dark curtains that are drawn .

The sun barely shines through them and it’s a dream when wanting to sleep during the day.

We’re sloppily making out, his hand caressing my body so carefully, the soft massaging his fingers are giving me are a wonder. It doesn’t get me aroused , it doesn’t make me want to climb onto him, it makes me want to k**s him deeper, to fall into his the love and embrace makes me feel safe.

“I love you.” I murmur against his soft lips and he hums as he pulls on my bottom l*p , letting it snap back into place, “I will love you until my last breath Eleia.” the emotion in his voice make tears form in my eyes and I can’t fathom the strength to stop it.

“Tell me you have a plan.” I sit up, pulling the duvet up , pressing the material to my body to hide myself. My dark hair cascades down my back as I stare down at him.

“For what?” he frowns and I hope he’s tired and not acting oblivious, because I am already losing my patience with him.

“To get Felix out of the mess he’s in.” my eyes narrow and he sighs, rolling onto his back.

The duvet is draped over his waist, his hand laying on his bare chest, his other arm folded behind his head.

“He wasn’t in any danger in the first place Eleia.” he breathes out , sounding tired .

“How can you say that? When he’s alpha…” Aiden sits up, c*****g his head at me, “When he’s alpha?” he interrupts. “He isn’t going to be alpha Eleia, he is not the heir to my pack, the baby you are carrying is.” He frowns, making my lips part in surprise, “But Felix is the first born.” I argue, “He’s Regan’s pack’s heir Eleia, not mine. My biological son will be alpha.” he looks at me as if I were crazy. “And what if I never had this baby?” I argue, pulling my knees to my chest. “Then I would have been alpha till I f*****g die and Stefan’s son would become alpha, but this pack’s future will be my b***d or Stefan’s, no one elses.” He tosses the duvet off him, grabbing his shorts and he pulls it on.

“But I am the luna, I am apart of this pack so why is Felix not a candidate? He is my biological son.” I argue and he sighs, raking a hand through his already messy hair, “Please don’t fight, you know what pack rules are.” He mutters as he puts on a shirt.

“Okay, I get it but where are you going ? We haven’t slept. Just come sleep for an hour.” I patt the bed, knowing that I pushed his buttons too hard.

“Well us not sleeping isn’t my fault, I have work to do and I need to come clean to Selena.” he sighs , combing his hair to the side with his fingers.

I blankly stare at him as he leaves…sometimes I don’t understand how his mind works, he just confessed how much he loves me and now things are hard and he’s leaving. If I haven’t brought the subject up, I am sure he would still be laying in the bed, holding me while we slept, but when times get tough, he gets tougher .

Getting out of bed, I take a shower and get dressed into a summer dress .

As I stand in front of the mirror, brushing my hair, I notice my small bump, sighing as I look down, rubbing the small bump.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

I don’t think I thought of my pregnancy since I found out about it and when I told Aiden, because I have been living my life care free.

I braid my hair when a sharp sting makes me bend over, my hands holding the counter in front of me.

Blowing out a breath, I wait until it passes before standing upright, inhaling a deep breath. I have no idea what that was, but I know it’s not something good..

I pull the braids I already made out and put my hair in a low ponytail before slipping my feet into sandals and I head down the stairs, the aftermath of that sting still lingering .

As I step out of the house, Rosie is outside, walking with her stroller and her son in the warmth of the sun. “Hi.” she beams when she sees me, looking like she’s having the time of her life, but I know all to well that happiness in the first few months after giving birth is not an option.

” Hi.” I breathe out, a smile crossing my face. I wait for her to walk over to me and as I take one step towards her, it happens again and my body folds, my knees buckle and the wind is knocked out of me as I fall to the floor.

I throw my weight to my side, landing on my shoulder and I crawl into a ball as a strained grunt escapes my mouth.

“Oh goddess !” Rosie is right by my side, her hands on my arm as she tries to roll me but I shake my head when I feel liquid at my entrance and against my thighs.

“Aiden !” Rosie roars, the entire pack hearing her and I squint my eyes at the loud sound.

It’s not even a few seconds when I feel his presence and his hands are on me, “Baby?” he frowns down at me, but I am too afraid to open my eyes.. I know what’s happening, I can feel it, but I’m hoping and praying that it’s only a dream. I won’t survive this..

Aiden lifts me up into his arms and my head lays against his chest, “Aiden.” Rosie’s horrifying voice makes him freeze, his heart pounding against his chest, making it sound like a thousand horses running .

“There’s b***d, a lot.” her voice is shaky and dry.

“F**k.” he just starts running with me, repeatedly telling me that everything will be alright and I really want to believe him, but I already know it’s too late. My heart is aching worse than my stomach at this point and I know what it means, my child is gone… he left us…

Laying in the bed, sobbing until my throat dries out and I can’t breathe, Aiden is punching walls in the hallway as the doctor does a procedure to dispose of the deceased fetus..

A nurse is holding my hand, a f*****g nurse, and not even my own mate.

I truly thought that this baby would have brought us back together, I was just accepting that I was pregnant again, more like acknowledging it, but I was happy, I was on my way to eat, something I haven’t done properly in weeks…

Is this my fault?

Was the baby malnourished?

Did I kill our son?

After the procedure, I lay numb in bed , just staring at the ceiling. I still have the bloody dress on , the dress that will haunt me forever…

“Doctor.” I croak when she comes in, “Luna.” she bows, “Can I do something for you?” the sorrow in her tone does nothing for me.

“What’s the reason?” A tear rolls down the side of my face.

“We don’t know.” the uncomfortable silence informs me that it’s a lie. “Please, I need to know.” I beg and she sighs, my ears focusing on her heart beat that’s beating faster than usual.

“You seem malnourished Luna…” she gulps and it’s like my world just collapses, “Thanks.” I murmur in a mere whisper before I sit up and get off the bed.

“I want to go home.” Is all I say when I pass her and I freeze while Aiden sits against the wall across my open room door, his eyes dark and narrowed on me.

I already know what he’s thinking…

He’s thinking that it’s all my fault, he’s thinking I am the monster that killed our son, his son, the heir to the pack…

He’s thinking about how much he hates me and about how much he wished he didn’t have me as a mate.

He’s thinking that I am the murdered and he is thinking about when to reject me, to hopefully get another mate, a mate that would take care of herself and his son while carrying him.

My eyes focus on the floor while I pass him and when he calls out my name , ordering me to stop, I ignore his heartbroken voice and I just keep moving .