Holding on to you

Killian’s P. O. V

“F**king find her!!”

I’m gonna put a noose around her beautiful neck and strangle the f**king life out of that sexy body of her! Why the hell did she run? Didn’t she know that it was too f**king dangerous for her to be trying to prove a point?

“Boss, it’s been a week, my men have comb the city looking for her and still nothing. We’ve got men stationed at his friends’ house but we haven’t picked up anything unusual. Wherever she is, the little lady doesn’t want to be found.”

That was not what I wanted to hear, I wanted them to find her before the wrong people did. I stopped being scared of things years ago, but the moment I found my car and she wasn’t in it, fear so strong gripped at my heart. I shouldn’t be feeling this way for a girl, it shouldn’t have bothered me that she left, but all I could think about for the last week was where she was and if she was ok.

I knew that I wasn’t the only one looking for her. The day when she left I was pissed the f**k off and shocked that she actually ran from me. When I realised that she took my car, I when after her, but I wasn’t able to pick up her trail. I was almost impressed with her, but I was beyond worried to really enjoy being bested by my girl.

When I return back to the house I found Kinsley waiting for me, and she didn’t look too happy. Apparently, Kaden was there when Red ran and he was all too happy to gloat about it. A few days after, I overheard Natasha on the phone asking someone if they had located the girl as yet. I got so mad that I grabbed her and threw her up against the wall, but as always her eyes lit up with lust. If there was anyone more sadistic than me, it would be Natasha. She thrived on pain, she needed it as much as I liked giving it, that’s what made our relationship worked.

I tried to get her to tell me who she was talking to, but what I was doing to make her talk only turned her on. It wasn’t until she tried getting me to have sex with her that I pushed her away from me, disgusted. My eyes were cold when I told her that I’d rather cut my d**k off than f**k her.

“Killi, have you found her?”

I looked up, caught off guard. Kinsley was standing with her hands wrapped around herself, looking every bit the teenager that she was. Gone was my sassy little sister with a mouth to keep me in a constant state of annoyance, instead, in her place was a vulnerable sixteen-year-old who was worried for the safety of her best friend.

Her eyes pleaded with me to say yes, and I wished that I could have told her that I did, but the truth is I didn’t know where she was and that was tearing me up inside. I’ve even had her friends and her ex-followed, but still, I came up empty.

I walked over to my sister and pulled her into my arms. I didn’t do affections because they caused too many complications, but for Kinsley, I was will to break my rules.

“No Kins, but I promised you that I will.”

I meant every word, I’m going to find her and bring her back home, then I’m to spank that lovely ass of hers for disobeying me.

“Well, isn’t this nice.”

Natasha and Kaden walked into the room smirking. I could see that they were enjoying my misery. I’m not a person who normally show my emotions but when it comes to Red, it’s hard for me to hide anything I feel for her.

For a guy in my position showing any sort of emotion is dangerous. I thought I had things under control when Red was in my protection, and because I let all of my enemies know how important she is to me, I fear that they’ll get to her before me and try to use her against me. And Natasha and Kaden are my enemies.

“You two are like f**king cancer, why the hell can’t you just stay gone?!”

I was getting tired of them up popping up out of nowhere, like two f**king ghosts that no one wants around.

“You just don’t seem to have any luck with the ladies, cuz. What is it about you that just send them running for the hills?”

A self-satisfied smirked appeared on his arrogant face when a took a step closer to him, but Kinsley placed her hand on my chest, holding me back. I wanted nothing more than to wipe the floor with his smug face, but I knew that I had to control my emotion. Showing weakness in front of them will get me nowhere.

I decided that ignoring them was the best action to take against them. However, they wouldn’t even let me do that. Just as I was about to walk out Natasha said something that had me doing a double-take.

“Heard the Granger aren’t dead after all.”

I schooled my emotions and gave her a blank look, there’s no way I was going to let her see how much that statement affected me.

“You know,” She walked closer to me, “Lilly looks a lot like them, wouldn’t you agree?”

I looked at her and laugh, throwing my head back I gave a hearty laugh. I saw her composure faltered for a second before she covered it up.

“You’re dumber than I give you credit for if you think that I’d let the offspring of a Grander live, let alone in my bed.”

She looked at me confused, but then she hid it behind an all-knowing smirk. She looked at me like she knew something that I didn’t and she wasn’t willing to share.

“Well, we’ll soon find out, won’t we?”

With that, she turned and walked out with her faithful puppy strolling behind her.

“F**k!!”

I couldn’t let them find her before I did! I cursed myself for taking the risk and letting her stay in my house. I should have known that someone would have found out who she was sooner or later.

“Killian, we have to find her before they do. We can’t let her suffer for the sins of her parents, she doesn’t deserve what will happen to her if dad finds out who she is.”

Kinsley’s voice shook as she spoke and she wrapped her hands around herself again, and I knew that she was remembering. I pulled her back into my arms, I never want her to have to relive those memories.

“It’s ok, Kins, I won’t let that ever happen to her, I’d tear this f**king house apart with everyone in it before I let them harm one red hair on her head.”

“I’m gonna f**k his little whore up and that blonde bitch too. Does he even know who he’s messed with, my dad owned half this school? I’ll teach him what happens to those who mess with an Alcott.”

I was out by the bleachers because I couldn’t spend one more minute in that class with a teacher who thinks he knows everything; I’d end up taking his life right there in front of the entire class.

How the f**k do they expected the students to learn when the teachers themselves don’t know shit. all they do all day is try to look important and talk out of their asses.

The weeks were flying by and still, I had no luck in finding my girl, my frustration was building, so I had to get the f**k out of there before I blew a gasket.

I was by the bleachers because it was the only place I could think straight and it didn’t hurt that it was the first place I ever laid eyes on Red. She was about twelve, she was sitting with her family watching her brother’s game.Exclusive content © by Nô(v)el/Dr/ama.Org.

One of the guards who were task with keeping an eye on me had a son who attended the same school and was a goalie in the game. I had nothing to do that day, and I sure as hell didn’t want to stay home with my dad while he was drinking, so when Mark asked if I wanted to go with him I jumped at the change and took my sister with me.

I remember her laughing when her brother scored a goal, the sound was like nothing I’ve ever heard before, so full of life and sunshine. I watched her throughout the game, and I remember thinking that I wanted to be the one she smiled and laugh for, and if I couldn’t be that person, I was going to make sure that she never smiled that way for anyone else.

I might only have been thirteen but I craved her, and I knew that one day she’d be mine and mine alone.

At the end of the game, I watched as she got up and started running to her brother, then this ass stuck his foot out and tripped her. I wasted no time in helping her up. She tried to smile but I could see that she was holding tears back in those big blue eyes of hers, and that pissed me off because I wanted that too to belong to me. It was from that moment I knew that I wanted to be the only one that made her cry. As for the f**ker who tripped her and made her hurt herself, well, let’s just say that walking would not be in his future.

Now, here were these two idiots, Leo Alcott and Harvey Michaels, talking about hurting the only two people that mean anything to me. I smirked to myself, it’s been a long time since anyone has been on the sharp end of my knives.

The death idiots continued talking, not knowing that they were digging their own graves. Stupid f**kers!

“I hear Macy saying that the blonde was going to Club Rage this weekend, maybe we’ll get lucky and the freak’s little whore will be there too. I’m gonna enjoy showing them a good time.”

I barely held myself back from kicking both their heads in. I knew I had to be patient, I’d get my time to play soon enough.