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Forbidden 245
I wake up alone, walking downstairs I don’t see anyone so I go back up and look in their rooms, none of them are there. I walk slowly to their office and hear them talking, pushing the door open they all look at
1. me.
Walking to DI smile and cuddle against him. I was hoping one of them would sleep with me but apparently they didn’t. Not that it matters I have been asleep for ages so now I will be awake for a while.
“What happens now?” I need to know.
“Grant will take over Troy’s role. He was close to Troy, so he’s taking time off. We plan to go to the business and deal with those people we have stored there. Then we take a week to plan funerals and recharge.” Calix explains it like it’s easy and simple.
I need to know about Troy. “Did Troy have family?”
“He had a sister, as for a partner no, he saw women on and off but never committed to anything. Grant is looking after his sister for a bit, and we’re sending her money as Troy paid for her.” Calix looks at me waiting, and I know I need to talk but I don’t want to.
“We found out some things when trying to save you. Things that you should know.”
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I shake my head, I need to know first. “Did you kill Evalyn to get information?” I look at D, his eyes widen and he shakes his head.
“Little birdie no, I would never torture a woman for information. Not like that, if she had planned and taken you sure but just randomly, no.” I relax against him. This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.
“I knew you wouldn’t, I had to ask though.” I had to be sure that what they said was lies.
“Look, Evalyn was the reason your parents kept you for so long puddin. Coppola family had money, but your uncle Nathan cut off your mum and dad after an affair. I guess things got so bad they knew the only way to get money was to sell you but apparently Evalyn was against it, so your parents decided to remove her from the situation.”
I turn hearing Calix. “My mum and dad killed her?” I watch as he nods, and guilt fills me. “Because of me.” They killed her because of
1. me.
“No! They killed her so they could do what they wanted without your sister getting Nathan involved. Do not blame yourself little birdie, you were a child. They chose to have you.” D looks at me and I nod, but I feel like I’m to blame.
“How are you feeling Cub? Are your side and leg okay?” Marc looks at me and I nod.
“I feel fine, but I know I made things worse for myself, Richard had never gone that far before.” He hadn’t they reacted when I spoke up, which I guess is my mistake.
“Nathan had me tied to a chair, trying to get me to give over information on you guys and I refused. I refused to let him call me family, I was vocal with him which made him hit me and say I was Dean
and Richards. He made them aware not to kill me though.”
“He was clearly hoping the threat alone of giving you to them would work. So what actually happened?” D looks at me and I nod.
“I was telling Nathan I wasn’t family, I told him to do his worst even after he brought in Dean and Richard. Nathan left with my parents and I was about to taunt Dean and Richard when someone hit me and I passed out. I woke up tied to the bed and decided I wouldn’t give them pleasure in seeing me hurt, so I called out to them calling them pussies for been scared of me and having to tie me down.”
D laughs and shakes his head.
“I think Richard said I was ready to play and I called him a bitch and said I was ready before he knocked me out and told him to do his worst. They looked at me shocked, clearly thinking I would shy away from them. I taunted them some more and then Richard unfastened my hands from the bed, Dean unfastening my legs. So I swung my hands and hit Richard in the nose and kneed Dean in the nose. I called them weak.”
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“You hit them?” Calix looks at me shocked and I nod.
“Yeah, I then headbutted Richard, and told myself not to again because it fucking hurt my head was already sore. That’s when Dean said they weren’t alone, said I enjoyed three men so they would make sure there was enough to get a reaction. I continued fighting against me. Dean had my hands above my head, so I used my legs to wrap around Richard, I swung my head and hit his nose.
Which hurt, btu was worth it when I heard his nose break. That’s when someone stabbed my in the side. I bit my cheek to stop me screaming.”
“Well that explains all the bruises and lumps on your head then. I was convinced they had done it all.” Demitri looks at me like he’s proud.
“Anyway I told the guy who stabbed me he was next, so I swung my legs hitting between his and he fell. That’s then they pinned my legs. down and held my hair so I couldn’t move. Richard looked smug like he knew I would freak, so instead I screamed at him, spat in his face and when he got a little too close I bite a chunk out of his cheek. He was frustrated with me, and I made it worse by laughing while he was guys stabbed fucking me. I don’t even know what I said, but one of the my in leg and I said I would remember his face. Dean and Richard had stopped and were just watching, they didn’t like that I fought.”
“You did make it worse, but you did it for a reason little birdie. Had you stayed quiet, tried to distance yourself or hide away mentally that would have been them winning. So while they hurt you far more than they would have, you won because in the end Richard and Dean hated it and you made them feel weak. I’m surprised they left you.”
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“Richard and Dean began running with the first explosion. I laughed at them, and Dean told the guys to stay and keep going if they walked out alive he would find them. I told them they made a wise choice and I would choose D’s torture over Deans as well, a bald guy hit me, and I laughed calling him baldie asking if he was taught it’s wrong to hit women. I spat at him. Which made him hit me again and I decided at that moment no more because my head was really hurting. Then as the shots got closer they dropped me and ran.”
D pulls me closer and smiles. “I’m proud of you little birdie. Not many would do that, most would within minutes give up and hide away. mentally to protect themselves. So even if what you did caused them to hurt you more, you at least know that’s because you were winning and they hated it.” She grins at me and I nod.
“D is right cub, Richard enjoyed the fact you weak to him, that is why he hated you fighting back so much. I didn’t realise the marks on them was from you, but it showed you won and they lost even if they succeeded in raping you.” Marc leans forward and kisses me cheek.
“Right, you two cook, I need Daisy.” I turn and look Cal, unsure of why he wants me. I watch as D stands and places me in his seat, before following Marc out. The room fills with silence now and I don’t know what to do or say.
“Okay, first thing puddin. Dean, Richard and the others that were in that room, we will deal with them tomorrow, how much do you want to be involved?” He looks at me waiting.
I consider it, and I know the answer. “I want to be involved with Dean
and Richard so they know I didn’t break. I want to be involved, as for the other men, I want to be there but I don’t really think I want to do anything, I might change my mind though.” I want to be there with Dean and Richard, not just for me but for all the women they have ever
used and abused.
I can’t remove what they did to me, I can’t wipe myself clean of their abuse, but I sure as hell can make them regret it.
“Puddin, come here.” Calix looks at me, and I move and walk to him, my body wrapping around his. I know I am keeping myself distanced from him, but that day I was taking he was weird and it’s still
in my mind now. If I keep distance it won’t hurt when he decides to walk.
“I know you spoke to D, but tell me what your thinking.”
“Did you shout at him?” I look at him waiting, and he smirks. “Don’t smirk, he told me yes but after I panicked overthinking everything. He doesn’t deserve you or Marc telling him off for it. It was my choice to push and ask and make him tell me.”
“D is fine, yes I was pissed off but I didn’t shout at him, I get it. Now stop avoiding my question please. I know you will be mad at us, but you can’t hide.”
“I’m not mad at you or them, why would I be?”
“Because we’re to blame. Even if it wasn’t us that physically hurt you, we’re to blame because it was our enemies who took you.”
So he feels guilty as well?
“Calix, we’re a family, you say and they say it. That means your enemies are mine.”
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“So you don’t look at us and think we’re to blame? That I’m to blame?”
“No, why would I think you’re to blame?”
“The way I treated you. I pushed you away, I hurt you. I made you feel like you didn’t want to live, then when I finally let you in, I gave you a fucking hand in a box. Daisy I threw you against the wall. All that would have had an impact on you.” I want to tell him to stop wollowing but I know it won’t
help and he will keep going. I know I don’t blame them though, what happened, makes no difference.
“Calix, at no point did I think you or they were to blame. At no point. did I want to shout at you or tell you it’s your fault.”
“You might though, when you finally accept everything, and realise what you lost. In a few days, a week or month, you may turn around and resent us. Realise that this life isn’t for you, this is twice now that our enemies have done this, and I can’t help but think you’re safer without us.”
I stare at him, going to talk and his hand goes up.
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“If you were Dean this wouldn’t have happened, if you somehow got. pregnant with Dean there wouldn’t have been the risk of our enemies because you wouldn’t have been connected to us. What happens when you decide you do want a baby, when you realise having a baby in this world is a death sentence.”
“Calix, you’re talking like you’re considering telling me to leave.” He is and it’s scary.
“I’m not.” He rubs his face. “I just want you to take time and consider everything. Really think if been with us is worth it. Can you live a life. where you won’t have kids, and if you do, the risk is it happens again. Can you really live this life knowing our life may once again lead you to get taken and hurt, our children to be taken and used, hurt as a way to get revenge.”
“I already know the answer.” I do, and he isn’t doing this.
“You don’t, because nowhere inside of you have you accepted you was pregnant. So how can you have considered it? All I want is you to consider things, you’re free from us, you can leave at any moment, and if I’m honest, after the last month, you and Rosalie, I don’t think your should stay.”
I sit looking at him feeling hurt. “I’m not letting you push me away and push me out.” I refuse to let him do this.
“If it takes doing it to make you open your fucking eyes and consider things I will. You’re living in a dream world. No woman in her right
mind would stay knowing that if she ever had a child it would be seen as a weakness and hurt to help them win.”
I step back and move away from him..
“You never let me in did you?” I look at him waiting, and he looks at me confused. “That morning you gave me the contract, it wasn’t to save me it was because you realised now you have had me, I’m nothing.”
He sits looking at me considering what I said, and the fact he didn’t argue it or tell me I’m wrong says I am right. Turning I walk out of the room, going to mine I lock the door and climb into bed, deciding just to hide away and consider how things will work now. I can’t say if Calix doesn’t want me here.
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