Forbidden Desire

Today once again Jane had proven her love for me, and I ended up hurting her again. Jinhee told her that I was with Scarlet, and I simply couldn’t deny it. When I heard Jinhee’s words, my body froze, and I could only hate myself for hurting this girl once again. She had defended me and believed in me even when all the evidence said otherwise, only to have her heart broken by my foolishness once again. I kissed her and confessed that I couldn’t stay away from her because it was true, yet she ran away from me, and I think that’s for the best now. I don’t want to take advantage of her feelings to satisfy myself, nor do I want to encourage those feelings.

Maybe it’s good that I must go to Thailand for a few days. Initially, I was supposed to stay just one day, but there’s another meeting on Saturday, so it’s easier for me to stay there waiting than to come back today and must go again on Saturday. I was finishing packing my suitcase when I received a message from Scarlet confirming the time we were meeting.

I remember the sex we had, and it was quite enjoyable. Maybe I should try again. With Jinhee watching, maybe if I took it slow, I could climax. The truth is, I was sexually frustrated. Since my last time with Jinhee, I haven’t been able to satisfy myself with any woman, and with Jane, my conscience always weighs on me, so being near her is almost torture for my body. I hear a knock on the door, and I really hope it’s not Jane because after feeling my body pressed against hers earlier and kissing those full lips almost made me lose my mind, my desire was to fuck her right there. The door opens, and I see Jinhee with a repentant look that didn’t move me. I continue packing clothes into the suitcase without looking at her, and suddenly I feel her hugging me from behind, making my whole body tense.

“Sorry, I didn’t know what else to do. I wanted to get back at you for what you did yesterday. Do you think it was easy for me to see you with that woman, Jason?”

I take a deep breath and try to break free from her hug, but her hands slide from my chest to my abdomen, and before she could reach my member, I remove her hand, turning to face her.

“What do you want, Jinhee?”

She looks me in the eyes, and I feel hatred for her seeming so sincere in what she’s saying.

“I want back what’s mine.”

“Nothing here is yours, Jinhee, not even the clothes you’re wearing.”

“Jason, I know you’re hurt by me, but I also know that you love me.”

She takes a step towards me, and I step back, making her smile. Damn! She knew it affected me and was taking advantage of it. She approaches and puts her hands on my chest, making me close my eyes in an attempt to control my impulses. I feel her hands running over my body, and when I open my eyes, she’s kneeling in front of me, still not breaking eye contact. Fuck! She knows how much she excites me and is taking advantage of it. She starts undoing my belt, and I’m absolutely mesmerized by her gaze. I feel my member throbbing inside my pants, and when she takes it out, she smiles in approval, putting both hands around it, making me groan loudly. I was at my limit; I needed to release all this sexual frustration from the past few days, but I can’t forget what she did, so I push her away, adjusting my pants and leaving her confused. She stands up, comes to me trying to kiss me, and tries to reach for my member, but I escape.

“Come on, Jason, let me suck you off! I know you only get satisfied with me.”

I can perceive in her tone of voice that she was enjoying this. She was sure she could convince me like this, and it made me feel hatred. I’m frustrated and annoyed, so I grab her by the arm, pulling her out of my room. On the way out, she clings to the door and starts pleading.

“Please, Jason, I’ll do anything to make things right again.”

“That’s never going to happen! Even if i have to fuck a thousand women to forget you, i’ll succeed!” I shouted.

“You can fuck up to two thousand women, Jason, you know they mean nothing to you compared to me. You only love me. It won’t be that secretary of yours or that maid here at home who will change that.”

I’m overcome with anger hearing her talk about Jane like that that I can’t control myself anymore, and I grab her by the arm, throwing her into the hallway.

“You watch your mouth before you talk about her because that ‘maid,’ as you say, is much better than you!”

“What? Are you comparing me to that maid?”

My blood boils, and I give a sarcastic smile.

“No! Never. Because you don’t even compare to her!”

She leaves a resounding slap on my face, and I lose all my self-control, grabbing her by the arm and leading her to her room.

“Jason, what are you going to do?”

I could see the fear on her face, but I didn’t care anymore.

“You’re getting out of here now!”

“Please, Jason! For God’s sake, I beg you, don’t kick me out!”

She starts crying and begging, but nothing from her moved me. I open the closet doors and start throwing all her clothes on the floor of the room.

“I don’t want you here for one more minute!”

She was crying so much that her knees weakened, and she fell to the floor while clutching the clothes scattered on the floor.

“Jason, please! I have nowhere to go. You know my parents won’t take me back.”

“You should have thought about that before!”

“Jason, I’m begging you!”

“When I come back from Thailand, I don’t want to see you here anymore!”

“What? Are you going to Thailand? With whom?”

She seemed worried, and I seized this moment to take control.

“With Scarlet, and I’m going to fuck her all week because she is a woman who enjoys what she’s doing. Not a frigid woman like you!”

Her eyes widened, and I could see the fire in her eyes; she trembled, and the tears that flowed down her face were now filled with hatred. I left feeling avenged, went to my room, grabbed my suitcase, and the driver was already waiting for me outside. As soon as I got into the car, I took a deep breath and felt relieved to spend a few days away from this house because these women were driving me crazy. Jane, because I wanted more than anything to be inside her, but I didn’t want to hurt her, and Jinhee because of the hatred I was feeling.

“Is everything okay, Mr. Park?”

I take a deep breath, trying to calm down, and say.

“I’m fine. I haven’t seen much of you around here.”

“Mrs. Park gave me a few days off because she said she preferred to drive.”

“Of course.”

She had given him time off just to be with her lover. The trip to the airport went smoothly since there wasn’t much traffic. Suddenly, I became curious and decided to probe Jin.

“Jin, your brother has been getting close to Jane, right?”

He smiles and starts talking; he’s always been very communicative, so I knew I could get any information from him.

“Oh yes! He only talks about her, it’s Jane this, Jane that. That girl has left my brother smitten, but she’s also very pretty. Even I, if I weren’t engaged, would be interested in her.”

Hearing him talk like that deeply irritated me, but I couldn’t show it since I wanted to know more.

“Do you think they have something?”

“Yeah! They’ve already kissed, she’s been to his house to eat noodles, so you can imagine what happened, right?”

He said jokingly, but I felt rage consume me.

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I shouted, and he looked at me through the rearview mirror seeming startled, and upon realizing this, I tried to disguise it.

“What’s wrong? What’s the matter, Mr. Park?”

“Nothing, I just didn’t think it had gotten to that point yet.”

“Oh! You know how it is, they say Brazilian women have hot blood, so that’s probably why it happened so fast.”

Who would have thought, once again, I was mistaken. I thought she was just a romantic and dreamy girl, but she’s out there sleeping with Eunwoo, while with me, she played hard to get. We arrived at the airport, and I saw Scarlet waiting for me wearing a short black dress that highlighted all her curves. I got out of the car and went towards her, and she lit up when she saw me. She had a look of pure desire, and I decide that I’ll do my best to try to satisfy myself with her.

“Good morning, Mr. Park, the jet is already waiting for us.”

I nod, and she seems disappointed. I think she expected me to kiss her or show any kind of affection, but that’s not the kind of relationship I was looking for with her, and I would make that clear. We entered the jet, and soon we were flying towards Thailand. The trip took about three hours, and I looked out the window feeling empty. I was with a beautiful woman next to me who was willing to satisfy all my desires, and I didn’t feel the slightest urge to do anything. I was taken out of my thoughts when I heard Scarlet’s seductive voice, and I felt her hand caressing my arm.

“Mr. Park? Is everything alright?”

I look at her, and she has her legs crossed, showing her toned legs, and her cleavage gives me a beautiful view of her breasts.

“I’m fine. Just very stressed.”

“I can help you relieve that stress.”

“Can you? How?”

“By making you feel so good, you’ll even forgot your stress.”

I smile, and she looks happy, but in reality, I was laughing because I highly doubted she could perform that miracle.

“Is that so? You can try.”

She gets out of her seat and comes to me, kneeling in front of me. She has no trouble pulling down my pants and starting her work. I feel her swallowing me whole, and damn, it feels so good. I feel her mouth going up and down relentlessly for I don’t know how long until I realize that this wouldn’t be enough, so I decide to take control. I make her stand up, put her on her knees on the seat, and make her bend over while I take off her panties and lift her dress. I put on a condom and position myself inside her without any delicacy, feeling her receive me without any difficulty.

She starts moaning loudly as I go deeper and deeper into her, her moans were so scandalous that sometimes they seemed fake to me, but I knew the orgasms weren’t. I fucked her in every position that this plane allowed us for I don’t know how long, I lost count of how many times I made her cum, and I could feel her legs trembling as she bounced non-stop on top of me. I was with big, full breasts at eye level, with an experienced woman who knew what she was doing, and yet I couldn’t cum. She noticed that I wasn’t as hard anymore, and I realized I couldn’t continue, so I took her off me, which made her look confused.

“Did I do something wrong?”

“No, I’m just not in the mood right now.”

She laughs, not believing what I’m saying.

“Not in the mood?”

I shrug, and she dresses looking dissatisfied, but then she shrugs and runs her hand down my arm.

“Well, we’ll have the whole week for that.”

I stay silent, and we spend the rest of the trip with her taking pictures from the plane’s window and commenting on the view. When we arrived, we went straight to the branch meeting, which lasted almost the whole day. I couldn’t bear discussing proposals and talking about numbers anymore. The meeting ended around six o’clock, and we finally went to the hotel, which was right in front of the beach. I went to my penthouse and noticed that Scarlet entered with me.

“Aren’t you going to your room?”

She seems embarrassed by my question and starts.

“Well, I thought that since we’re together, we could stay in the same suite, so I booked only one room.”

I take a deep breath and realize I need to clarify things.

“Look, Scarlet, you’re hot, but I don’t want to be in a relationship with anyone right now. We did have sex, but we’re not together. I’m sorry if I gave you that impression.”

I know she was disappointed, but she tried not to show it.

“Don’t worry! We’re not going to stop having such great sex just because of a label.”

“You should have booked a room for yourself.”

“Well, now it’s too late.”

She says, trying to disguise how upset she was. She goes to the bed, puts the suitcase on it, and grabs some lingerie. She undresses and walks to the bathroom.

“Want to take a shower with me?”

She teases, and I feel nothing.

“You go.”

I open the balcony door, observing the scenery. I take a deep breath and see the shades of red tinting the sky; I hear the sound of the sea and close my eyes to enjoy this moment, but when I close my eyes, I remember Jane, I remember the day we spent watching the sea, and I kissed her for the first time, I remember those plump lips, her panting breath when I approached, how she made me throb with desire with just one kiss. I open my eyes and imagine how much she would love this view; she would probably want to paint and would spend hours lost in her own thoughts. I loved seeing how concentrated she was when she was drawing, I remember her smile and how it also made me smile. I was so distracted that I didn’t notice when Scarlet returned; I only realized when she hugged me from behind, pulling me out of my thoughts. She turned me to face her and kissed me; when I closed my eyes, I saw Jane and knew exactly what I had to do; I pushed the blonde away and ended up smiling.

“I need to go home, let the jet pilot know we’re heading to the airport.”

“What? What do you mean, Jason?”

“What part didn’t you understand? Come on! Do as I said.”