CHAPTER 98: IN A FORTH-NIGHT
“I wonder what they would look like. Oh and the powers. I guess they would have it both combined. That would be so much power in a being,” Nikkei kept talking.
My throat felt dry as I looked away I wanted her to stop talking. How could she think that I would want that? Carrying a child again in my womb was something I hadn’t considered would ever happen again. Not after all that happened in the hands of Raymond and Ryan. Losing the pregnancy, that was something I haven’t healed from. It haunted me day and night. I blame myself everyday that I lost it. Maybe if I had done this a little differently. Worked a little less and eaten more, it would have been a different scenario but here I was planning another life. Guilt tripped me.
“What would you call you first heir?” Nikkei couldn’t just understand that I would never want that.
“Stop!” I nearly shouted.
She turned to me sharply shocked from the tone of my voice.
“What?” She asked surprised.
“Don’t say that.”
“But why?”
“I’m not going to have any kids.”
“I thought you are doing this?”
“I am but it still doesn’t change the fact that this is just a fake. Nothing of that sort would ever happen.”
“Why are you so worked up about it? If you don’t want kids, all you have to do is say so.”
“Can we just change the topic?” I asked.
“Okay, if you say so. You have to calm down. I down know what is going on between you and Kieran.”
I turned to her sharply.
“Yes, it’s obvious that something is going on between you two.”
“There is nothing going on between us.”
“Oh yeah, don’t forget that you are talking to witch. I can read you like a book.”
“So now you are casting spells on me?”
“No, of course not. I just want you to know that you don’t have to pretend when you are around me. I’m a friend.”
“You are a witch who is assigned to help me. That’s your duty so stay in your lane. Just stop overstepping your boundaries,” I snapped and at that moment, I realized my words but it was a bit too late.
“Hey, Nikkei I’m sorry,” I tried to hold her but she pulled away and headed for the door.
“You are right, I am not your friend but someone assigned to work for you. And that’s what I will always be to you. I get it. It’s what I was sent here to do. Why was I so stupid?”
“No, Nikkei please I didn’t mean that.”
“Well, call me when you need a witch to perform witch duty.”
“Hey, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean that.”
She took her hand away as I tried to hold her again. Then I knew that it was over. I had pushed her to the edge.
“No, you don’t but you always do things to hurt the next person trying to help,” she said.
“You don’t understand.”
“Sure I do understand. All you do is think about yourself. How you will feel about a particular thing. Have you ever thought about how Kieran feels right now? Going through shits because of you.”
“I think about that everyday and I feel so terrible,” tears rolled down my cheek. “Look Nikkei, I’m deeply sorry. Just going through a lot of stress lately.”
“Yeah there is always an excuse for all your crazy outburst. Look, I can’t be around you right now. And I don’t think I will ever feel like being around someone that would never appreciate your effort and never see you as a friend no matter what you go through with them. You know what Clara, I need some air. Like I said, call me when you need someone to perform some witchy duties.”
She walked out leaving me without my words. I was lost and I couldn’t understand why I had to speak to her that way when she was only trying to help. She was right. Every time something was wrong, I’ll place the present happenings as the reason of my crazy actions. I always thought I had been responsible but it turns out that it didn’t apply to every sector. I was to be mated soon, in whatever date that I deemed fit and it was my call.
This was the time that I needed to be responsible and make decisions beyond just my feelings. The kind that Kieran made sometimes. Maybe that was what it meant to be a leader. Kieran and I had shared moments, beautiful ones at that. But I needed to put my emotions aside. It was time I had to come to the fact what we had was just a mere fling, the way that he had described it.
There was nothing special and I didn’t have to feel bad about that. All I want was to make everything go back to the way that it should be. And that means putting Kieran’s kingdom at the peace that it was before. And if it needs me to put up the pretense of being joyful about this mating process with Kieran, then I would do just that. After all, Kieran had made a lot of sacrifices to save my life. I felt like I owed him this. The members of the werewolf council aren’t weaklings or quitters. Or people who would hide behind the backs of spies. They are powerful and would come all out to attack Kieran and bring down his strong hold along with his kingdom. I was not about to let that happen.
I matched down to Kieran’s chamber. I didn’t want to wait until the thoughts clouded what I had in mind. So I knew that I needed to move fast and so I did. As if he had been waiting for me, he opened the door immediately just after a tap on the door and ushered me in.
“To what do I owe this pleasure, my queen,” he kissed my hand and I pulled me in.
“What was that for?” I asked as I pulled away.
“Well, if we are going to go on with this then we need to make it look and feel real. Or no one will believe us.”
“They will believe us after the mating ceremony. That is enough proof. I mean what evidence would they have to show that it isn’t real? We are making a lot of sacrifices doing this. So they have to.”
“This means that you have finally accepted to do this?”
“What other choice do I have. Of course I’m doing this.”
“I guess that is the reason why you are here.”
“Yes and I think I have a date in mind,” I looked away.
“Wow that’s great. I’m really glad that we are doing this. So what date did you come up with?”
“The white moon it’s in a fortnight. I have always wanted to be mated under the white moon,” I said.
“Then, that is when the ceremony is going to take place.”
“It is going to be a big ceremony.”
“I thought that you would have preferred something less.”
“Why? Because it is a fake?”
He shrugged.
“Well normally I would have preferred something less. But you are a King. Your mating ceremony cannot be anything less or they might begin to suspect. And secondly,” I paused.
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“I have never done this before. So if I’m ever going to do this whether fake or real, then I would do it the way that I should.”
He nodded and reached for my hands. I wanted to it away from him but the moment just felt right.
“That is why I put you in charge. I want you to handle this the way that you want. I trust that you would make it perfect. I’m so sorry that this is happening.”
“Its fine. Its not a big deal.”
“It is Clara.”
“Why say so?”
“Whatever happens at the mating ceremony cannot be reversed.”