Chapter 798 In My Lifetime, I Only Have Eyes For You
Jasper’s expression softened, and he looked at her with his fiery gaze. “I can explain.”
“You don’t need to. I don’t want to hear it. It’s your business,” Stella said coldly.
“Are you kicking me out then?” Jasper asked with a frown.
“I wanted to take some time to think about our relationship. But now, I don’t think I need to anymore. Whether you think I am indifferent or heartless, this is just how I am. Perhaps I am not worthy of your feelings, so let’s end things here. Like you said, we haven’t divorced, so let’s get that done. As for your assets, I don’t want any part of it.”
“What about Sandro? Do you not want him either?” Jasper asked.
“The child is yours too. I believe that you will be a good father. If we see each other, it’ll just be an additional emotional burden. If we don’t, everyone can be at peace.”
“Everyone can be at peace?” Jasper’s eyes were red and he smiled bitterly. He scoffed, “I’m afraid that you’re the only one who would think that way. I won’t divorce you. I’ll contact you again tomorrow.”Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
Jasper didn’t force her further. The more he forced her, the more distant she would be.
Hence, he left just like that.
Stella closed the door. She took a few deep breaths to calm her emotions.
She then returned to her room and quietly pondered to herself.
She began to understand why she had hypnotized herself all those years ago.
Jasper had always been too silent. He refused to say anything, and he was too hard to read. It was so annoying. After a certain amount of suppression, anyone would have an outburst.
She closed her eyes, turned off her phone, and took a good rest.
It was dawn when she woke up.
Stella looked at the time and learned that it was 6. 15 a. m.
She got up, brushed her teeth, washed her face, and then went to the kitchen. She put some oatmeal into the microwave before heading to the backyard to water the flowers.
When Gracie saw Stella coming, she immediately got up and ran over, her tail wagging.
Stella smiled at her and watered the flowers.
Gracie went to play with the water and ended up getting wet, which made Stella laugh.
After watering the flowers, she fed Gracie and went back into the kitchen. Then, she added some granola to her oatmeal. She sat down and started to eat whilst she watched TV.
She felt that life now wasn’t so bad. She was calm as she gazed at the flowers with a smile. Her emotions were no longer like a rollercoaster. Instead, her life was stable, and she was free.
Without a relationship, she still had love for herself and many other things. Without the commitment of a relationship, she could now focus on doing so much more, instead of just pouring her efforts into Jasper.
Human beings should grow happier as life goes on, instead of drowning themselves in suffering.
After breakfast, Stella looked at the time and knew that it was time to go grocery shopping. As soon as she opened the door, she saw Jasper.
He scrutinized her expression and offered a smile, saying, “Morning.”
She noticed that he was still wearing the same clothes from the night before. His hair was damp from morning dew, and he had dark circles under his eyes. His eyes were bloodshot as well. She questioned skeptically, “Did you stay here all night?”
Jasper did not reply. He asked back, “Are you going out to shop for groceries now?”
Stella nodded.
“I…” Jasper was about to say something, but he stopped himself. “I’ll go with you.”
“It’s okay. Go back and rest up. You look very tired,” Stella turned him down with a smile. Then, she walked past him and toward her car.
The way she treated him was just as how she would treat a neighbor.
Jasper held her hand to stop her and furrowed his brows. His heart ached, and he felt like there was a knife stabbing it. His breathing became shallow as he insisted breathily, “I’ll accompany you.”
He repeated himself forcefully.
Stella looked at his hand on her wrist calmly and then at his face. She said nonchalantly, “You could only accompany me for a short while. Why bother insisting?”
“I can explain everything,” Jasper’s voice was somber as he spoke. He had always been a resolute man, but right now, his eyes were misty.
He knew that she had already made up her mind and pushed him out of her world. To him, it felt so much worse than being murdered.
At this thought, his eyes fogged up even more.
Jasper clenched his fist and stared at her for a long time.
Recalling the scene when they had gone camping a few days ago, Stella felt a little warm in her heart and the look in her eyes softened.
However, she did not want to waver so easily from her decision.
“Do you know why I chose to leave you?” Stella asked.
Jasper pursed his lips and did not answer.
He was afraid that she would chase him out as soon as he spoke.
Therefore, he decided to lie. “You thought I was dead.”
Stella lowered her eyes and felt a dull pain throbbing in her chest. She didn’t like this feeling.
“I’m going to Master Olgic’s place to listen to a sermon today. I’ll give you the final answer tomorrow, okay?” Stella said calmly.
“Don’t go,” Jasper urged.
There were three reasons for his anger and moody behavior from the day before. One, Stella had chatted so merrily away with some other man that she hadn’t even paid attention to Jasper. So, he was jealous. Secondly, he constantly sensed that Master Olgic was trying to get her to leave the house. He didn’t like that one bit. Lastly, as for the woman whom he had taken away, it was because he was worried that she was a scammer of some sort. He did not want Stella to be taken advantage of.
However, it had always been in his nature to just do things without explanation.
He hated this part of him too. Because of this, he kept hurting her over and over again.
Stella stared at him, and she saw fear in his eyes.
A woman’s biggest weakness was… soft-heartedness.
Because if she was soft-hearted, she would forgive his mistakes. If she was soft-hearted, she would forgive the hurt he had put her through. If she was soft-hearted, she would force herself and allow him to get away with his actions.
“I want to go. I think it’ll be helpful for me. Sorry, I don’t know what kind of woman I used to be when you fell in love with me. But I no longer have those memories from the past. I am now a very selfish woman. I just want to live for myself and do what I want to do. I want to make more friends and let life take its natural course.”
Jasper let go of his hand and his shoulders slumped down in defeat.
Stella brushed past him, got into her car, started the engine, and left.
Jasper looked sadly as her car drove away.
Stella looked at him in the rearview mirror and saw his longing gaze. All of a sudden, her heart ached terribly.
She parked the car on the side of the road, clutched her chest, and tried to calm herself down.
Jasper saw her stop the car and ran over worriedly. He opened the car door and asked anxiously, “What’s wrong? Are you not feeling well?”
Stella glanced at Jasper and noticed his concern, fear, and nervousness.
“I’ll take you to the hospital,” Jasper put his arm around her waist and tried to carry her.
Stella held his arm and stopped him. “I’m fine.”
“Are you sure?” Jasper looked at her face doubtfully.
“I’m fine,” Stella said with certainty.
Jasper let go of his hand around her and sighed, “Okay, that’s good.”
“Anyway I’ll be leaving,” Stella was about to close the door after saying that.
“Remember to call me if you’re unwell,” Jasper instructed.
“Okay,” Stella replied casually.
Then, Jasper closed the door for her.
Stella glanced at him briefly before driving away once again. She realized that Jasper was still standing by her front door when she got back from grocery shopping.
He stared at her as she got out of the car.
“You didn’t sleep last night. Aren’t you tired?” Stella asked.
Truthfully, Jasper knew that he would soon be pushed out of her life. After that, he had no idea what he would do with his life. He just wanted to see her now whenever he still could.