CHAPTER 53: DON’T KISS AND TELL
Emma quickly got up and took few steps backward from Sam. Sam kissed her and she didn’t see it coming. She was surprised and somewhat furious. She wanted to yell at him for the act but she caught a glance at his shivering body, his sore eyes and rough hair and felt pity for him instead. However, it was not an excuse for him to kiss her like that. She thought. She stared at him intently and he was rubbing his palms vigorously. He must be sorry she thought or probably afraid of what her reaction will birth. “I am very sorry Emma. ” he said shaking his head indicating he was truly sorry. “I didn’t mean to… I… ” he said and instantly remained silent. “Leave Sam. ” Emma blurted. “What? I.. ” Sam was saying. “I said leave Sam. ” Emma said again. He nodded and said “Fine I’ll go but I am deeply sorry. ” He went for the door and was still apologizing while Emma followed him and slammed her door after he got out. She went back, fell on her bed staring at the ceiling in confusion.
Sam just kissed her and she didn’t really know how she felt. Is she surprised or angry? Was she feeling sorry or disappointed in him? Emma thought. She didn’t know what to do next. She can’t remember sharing a kiss with anyone other than Gideon. “Gideon. ” she blurted and immediately sat up. The last time she kissed someone without thinking clearly was William and he paid for it. This is Chicago, she thought. There was no way Gideon will find out she kissed someone or someone kissed her rather. “And so what? ” she said out loud. Gideon is her ex husband and it didn’t matter whom she shared a kiss with. As far as she was concerned, she would hang out with anyone or more still kiss anyone. But deep down, Ema felt awkward and guilty. She cleaned her eyes countless times and placed her face in her palms. “Stop feeling guilty Emma. You owe Gideon no damn loyalty. ” she told herself and dragged herself to the bathroom. Perhaps a warm bath will lighten her mood she thought.
During her shift at the bar that night, Emma kept peeping towards the door hoping to get a glance of Sam. Was she too harsh on him? She thought. She had wanted to tell Ellie about the predicament but she didn’t. Ellie will be shocked she was hanging out with Mr. Arrogant lately and it will raise questions she wouldn’t want to answer. Her shift will be done in an hour yet Sam didn’t show up. Maybe he needed some time alone she thought. He looked stressed and needed to clear his head from the guilt of hurting his father. She wouldn’t judge Sam for being kind of irrational. It proved he cared and loved his mother and his father had no right to assault his mother. Had Sam been drinking to stupor? She thought because when he came to her apartment with that bouquet of flowers, he was looking shrunken, broken and she could swear he was ill. Could a mere guilt be responsible for the state she saw him in? She thought. Sam is not her problem she told herself and continued clearing the table. She felt she was beginning to care for him too much.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
After Emma got home that night, she was stressed. She quickly showered and rolled into her blanket. Her phone was on silent mode and Sam kept calling while she slept like a baby. When she woke up the next day, it was past 8am. “Oh my God. ” she mumbled after seeing the countless calls Sam gave her. She tried his line but his phone was off. She quickly got dressed and hurried to the gym. All through her workout, Emma kept thinking whether Sam will appear the way he had been doing but he didn’t. She remembered him telling her about her workout sessions so she knew he could find her here if he wanted. “Could he be angry?” she thought as she walked home. She felt maybe he was pissed because he called her severally and she didn’t respond which was not intentional. She was the one who is supposed to be angry after all, he kissed her without her consent. May be he’s at work she thought then dialed his number which was unreachable. She heaved a deep sigh and hurried home.
Emma missed her mother’s chicken sauce so she decided to make it that afternoon. While in the kitchen, she almost cried because it was Ryan’s favorite meal. She was sad so she threw the packed meal inside the refrigerator and began crunching some biscuits. She wondered how her parents were doing even though they spoke regularly on the phone. During her last phone conversation with her mother, she inquired whether Gideon ever came over and she was told he never showed up. She later felt stupid for asking in the first place and was convinced that Gideon had moved on. There was no denying that she missed him but his exit from her life is necessary she thought. Suddenly, her door bell rang. Sam she thought and rushed to the door. She peeped through the key hole and saw Sam standing.
Emma opened her door and smiled at Sam without even knowing why. “Can I come in? ” he asked her. “Sure. ” she replied paving the way for him with her hand. He went inside and sat on the couch. He was looking dashing. His Jet black hair was well draped and his shoes were glittering. Emma was certain he was fine now. “How’s your dad? ” she asked sitting opposite him. “He is good. He has been discharged. ” Sam replied with a smile. “I’ve been trying your line. It was unreachable. ” Emma pointed out. “Sorry I had to switch it off due to some reasons. I needed to clear my head. ” he said. “Meanwhile, ” continued Emma. “I slept like a big baby last night. My phone was on silent mode. ” she said. “It’s fine. ” said Sam. “So what can I offer you? ” she asked him. “No am good. ” he quickly replied. “Are You sure? ” inquired Emma. He smiled and nodded. “Emma I want us to talk about yesterday. ” he began. “Well, I’ll take what happened as a moment of weakness from you. ” replied Emma firmly, staring directly at Sam. “Its all my fault. ” he said. “I want to assure you that it won’t happen again. ” he promised while Emma nodded. “Okay. ” she replied with a smile. “So we are good now? *he asked with his palms open. *Yea we are good. ” Emma said.